Chapter 87

Shen Luyang looked straight at Xie Weihan’s face, the arms behind him tightened and tightened, forcing himself to calm down.

But the end tone was still shivering: “Teacher Xie, now… do you want to kill me, or do you want me to be injured? Why…?”

Shen Luyang didn’t understand.

I clearly like it, why hurt it? Shouldn’t it be distressing and reluctant to like it?

Is it something he has been ignoring all along…?

Xie Weihan’s fingertips with thin calluses landed on the peak of his lips, kneading in the softest place, until the lips were congested and swollen, and then moved away, the pale and handsome face had an expression that Shen Luyang had never seen before.

Extremely gentle, as morbid.

Yin Hong’s thin lips curled up slightly, and the hand that held Shen Luyang’s back neck forcefully pressed the person on his shoulder.

His lips were close to his ear, his eyes contained an extreme smile, and his tone was soft as if he was talking about love.

“Yang Yang, everything in the world is changing, nothing is eternal.”

“Look, I used to be so nice to that dog, and he died… He’s let me down. I put my love on him, and he’s wasted.”

“It doesn’t deserve my affection.”

Shen Luyang was stunned, in his heart, Xie Weihan’s feelings for this dog when he was a child were reluctance and heartache.

But the opposite is true.

“Yangyang, will you leave me? I give you all my love, if you leave…”

The madness in his eyes flashed, but the smile on his lips became deeper and deeper, Xie Weihan kissed the tip of his fragile ear, and his voice was so soft that there was only a breath left: “Now I will kill you, eat you, and we will kill you. Together forever… don’t want either?”

Shen Luyang was like a gecko nailed to the wall, unable to move.

The body became cold and stiff because of these words, but the ears that were kissed were hot.

I am afraid of death, but I am not afraid of you.

Feeling Xie Weihan’s warm breathing, the spirit rising from the depths of his heart stretched out tentacles, clinging to the cold body tightly.

He seemed to understand that, for a long time between the two people, if there was something that seemed to be absent and could not be eliminated—

What Xie Weihan wants is eternal love, forever together, after seeing two people in love to the end of the world at a glance.

There can be no surprise.

And he never thinks about the future, he concentrates on enjoying every second that Xie Weihan loves him.

As long as Xie Weihan still loves him, he can live happily.

Totally the opposite.

For Shen Luyang, the eternal love is too ethereal and far away, and it is enough to enjoy every day of the present.

For Xie Weihan, every day at the moment is living in an extreme sense of insecurity, enduring the pain of being folded in desire and instinct.

But Xie Weihan has always been accommodating him, he never mentioned it, and he didn’t notice…

The repressed desire will not disappear, it will only grow every day, torment day after day, year after year…

Shen Luyang was unprecedentedly dazed, unable to do anything about the status quo to the point where he didn’t know where to start.

He struggled to look at Xie Weihan’s face, a little nervous and a little confused.

He opened his mouth, and after a long while, he asked dryly, “Mr. Xie, do you… love me now?”

Xie Weihan raised his eyebrows, as if those words that sent chills down his spine were not from his mouth, and calmly admitted: “Love.”

Shen Luyang rubbed his arm, and was bound and began to feel sore and painful. The physical discomfort intensified the feeling of powerlessness in his heart because he couldn’t solve the problem. He frowned and found the problem: “Then don’t you feel bad? I said it hurt just now, why didn’t you take me back?”

Xie Weihan laughed, playing with the tie on his wrist with his fingertips, and said lightly: “Because I want to kill you and be with you forever.”

Seeing Shen Luyang staring straight at him, his chest heaving violently, and being unable to speak for a long time, Xie Weihan regained his gentle tone and asked soothingly, “Are you afraid?”

Shen Luyang’s Adam’s apple rolled, gritted his teeth, and said viciously: “You don’t like me! Loving is distressing, ah, I can’t bear to make you feel uncomfortable, I can’t bear to make you feel wronged… I know you’ve been suppressing yourself and can’t bear it, that’s why I see you like this! But I No regrets, because you are really comfortable now. I just like it!”

“The eternity you want… Where’s the eternity? Isn’t it bad for us to enjoy the present? I love you, aren’t you happy?” He leaned over, kissed Weihan’s lips, and let go, “I kiss you, Your heart is beating faster, don’t you feel any satisfaction?”

Hurting the other party and ignoring the other party counts as what kind of love counts as what kind of love. The eternity created by this as a starting point can only be when one party sacrifices their love, and only then can they be together forever.

But what’s the point.

Xie Weihan listened to him calmly, and in just a few seconds, he has changed from a crazy ASPD patient to an elegant and gentle Teacher Xie.

He indulgently looked at the person in front of him staring at him with red eyes, like looking at a big irritable dog, his voice was low and warm, without any rebuttal: “This is the way you like, I can accept it.”

Embrace the “enjoy the moment” way of thinking…not change.

“So you still have to suppress yourself?” Shen Luyang felt powerless, knowing that his words were extremely selfish, but he couldn’t help but say them, he bit his lip: “Teacher Xie, your thoughts… can you try to change them? ?”

How can it be possible to pursue eternity in the middle of life.

The future is synonymous with the unknown, and even if eachother has made an alliance now, it is not certain that there will be no accidents.

Xie Weihan denied it indifferently, as if it didn’t matter: “I will restrain myself, no need to worry.”

Shen Luyang couldn’t accept it.

He hoped that Xie Weihan would enjoy this relationship as he did, instead of suppressing his desires to satisfy him as he had always done.

Xie Weihan caressed the side of his face, jokingly: “You can give me some sweets, such as loving me, and I may not feel uncomfortable.”

Shen Luyang couldn’t see Xie Weihan’s current appearance. He seemed to be sacrificing all the time. He was obviously such a crazy and controlling person, but because of him, he was locked in a cramped cage.

Shen Luyang clearly wanted the best for him, but in the end he found that all the good ones had shackles on them, and Xie Weihan couldn’t undo them at all and didn’t want to.

His eyes were even redder, the heat spread, and his hoarse voice sounded pitiful and angry: “The eternal love you said doesn’t feel bad for me at all, doesn’t respond to me at all, and even kills me in order to be together forever… But I The I love you in my heart is distressing, responding, and enjoying every second of the moment…”

The voice sounded like she was about to cry: “The two of us will never meet.”

Xie Weihan’s hand on his waist touched the tie, and his fingertips stroked the red, swollen and scratched skin, “It’s not important.”

Shen Luyang: “This is very important!”

Xie Weihan untied the entangled tie with one hand and untied his hand.

The simple action seemed to draw a scribbled end to this game of tearing the camouflage, and told Shen Luyang to “go back and be a pampered big dog when you’ve had enough.”

Shen Luyang couldn’t accept it.

He grabbed Xie Weihan’s shoulders, put his knees on the chair, and rubbed forward, bringing the two people closer together.

He bowed his head and kissed Xie Weihan’s lips, cheeks, and eyes, begging him: “Think of a way to thank Teacher, there must be a way to satisfy both of us at the same time, I don’t want you to be wronged, I feel bad.”

Xie Weihan hugged him, his warm palms roaming on the undulating back, with his kisses, he raised his head, closed his eyes, the pale skin color made the curvature of his lips more intoxicating and fragile. .

“I’m enjoying it right now,” he said.

Shen Luyang was confused and angrily denied: “This doesn’t count!”

Knowing that the other party is morbid, extreme, and will not give up until there is blood, Shen Luyang still wants to satisfy Xie Weihan uncontrollably.

Because he did it all with his own hands.

His love is like a castle given to Xie Weihan. It is gorgeous and beautiful, but it is empty and isolated from the world. The loneliness is enough to make people crazy.

Even if Xie Weihan wanted to plant a rose representing love, he would have to gouge out the flesh and irrigate it.

This blood is either his or Xie Weihan’s own.

From the beginning to the present, every rose that Xie Weihan gave him was laced with blood.

In the name of love, he personally trapped the person he loved in a deserted castle.

And the other party was so happy that he never thought of running away.

The system may be very happy, the whole world in the book is excited, excited, congratulations to him for catching the most dangerous existence in the book, the world is safe.

But he was not happy, he didn’t care about the safety of the world, he just wanted Xie Weihan to be happy.

Xie Weihan is the only person in the world who loves him, pampers him, and spoils him. Every cent of his efforts will be doubled from Xie Weihan.

This response is indefinite, unconditional, and does not ask for anything in return—from birth to now, Shen Luyang has asked too many people without asking for anything in return, but for the first time, someone has asked him for nothing in return.

The first candy was always extra sweet and unforgettable. He would not allow anyone to steal this sweetness, not even Xie Weihan himself.

It’s his!

He has to hide in his arms all the time, and lick it cherishly every day.

It was his most precious thing and belonged to him alone.

But now suddenly someone told him that the center of this candy is bitter.

Shen Luyang couldn’t accept it, no matter what the cost, he would make him sweeter.

The clarity of his eyes was replaced by anger and self-blame. Shen Luyang looked at Xie Weihan at a loss. He didn’t know when he started to ask for help from the other party: “Is there no way?”

He wanted to plant roses in the castle, put candy in the bedroom, and live in it with Xie Weihan.

But this kind of life has to hurt someone.

Xie Weihan looked at him and smiled dotingly, and said coaxingly, “Yes. You can just say you love me.”

Shen Luyang pursed his lips, the redness under his eyes deepened, and the wet end of his eyes gradually couldn’t bear it anymore. Every drop of tears was like strong acid, and the burning skin hurt.

Xie Weihan gently wiped away his tears and comforted him softly.

However, Shen Luyang only felt pain, pain for him.

There is also the irritable anger that grows from the depths of the heart, and almost burns him to ashes.

A long time passed, and it seemed like only a moment had passed.

Shen Luyang hoarse his voice and decides what to do. He gritted his teeth and tried to ask calmly, “Mr. Xie, can I still make rules?”

“You can always.”

“I want you… never hide yourself in front of me.”

Xie Weihan paused for a while, his slender and powerful arms tightened, so that the two people’s chests were pressed closely together, feeling each other’s heartbeats.

The snow outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, and the dim light of the promenade created a beautiful outline on one side of his face, just like his pious expression at the moment.

Like the devil standing at the gate of hell, he asked the human beings outside the gate, “Can I go there?”

Bowing his head, a clean kiss without any desire fell on Shen Luyang’s collarbone: “Are you sure?”

Shen Luyang is like a madman who is cornered, hysterical and reckless: “sure, as long as you love me.”

The aroma of red wine quietly wrapped around Shen Luyang’s ankle, spared circle after circle, and slowly climbed up…

Xie Weihan rubbed the tip of his nose against the bulge of his collarbone, sniffed the pheromone floating on the side of his neck, and said softly, “I love you.”

I love you so much that I want to carve you into my blood, rub into my soul, or cut my throat with my own hands, drink the blood that flows for you, and become one with you…I want to be with you forever and ever.

Shen Luyang felt the kiss on his neck, soft and persistent, lingering…like poppies, he couldn’t help swallowing it even knowing the consequences would be irreversible.

He slowly stretched out his right hand and touched a budding rose flower, he said hoarsely: “I want you to love me, you want us to be together forever-”

As soon as he grasped the stem of a rose that had not yet bloomed, the sharp thorn penetrated the skin, and his hands trembled in pain, but he did not know it was painful, and looked at Xie Weihan with despair and hope, with desperate madness on his face: “Now You love me, and I want to be with you forever, as long as we die now… we can never be apart!”

Before he finished speaking, Shen Luyang pulled the rose with all his strength, the thorn-covered flower stem wrapped around his wrist, his left hand pressed Xie Weihan’s shoulder, and his right wrist led the extra flower stem to wrap around Xie Weihan’s pale neck, I don’t know. He tightened his right arm like pain, and let the flower stem on the skin of the two people, cruelly and bloodily drawn a circle of sunken red marks.

The spikes penetrated into the flesh and blood of the palm and wrist, piercing the fragile skin of the neck, leaving a shocking red everywhere.

The pain was intense and unbearable, Shen Luyang’s entire right arm was trembling, the more sensitive skin on the side of the neck and the glands suffered the same pain, the dark red blood slipped from the wound and dripped on Xie Weihan’s lips.

It was licked off by the frivolous temptation of the tongue.

Green thorns were entwined around the pale neck, pale pink petals fell on the corners of his lips, and the blood-stained red and pure pale pink were indistinguishable.

The man was forced to raise his head because of the flower branches tied tightly around his neck. The sharp thorns were like a wreath inlaid on his neck. Blood.

This extravagant and unusual picture constitutes a very broken and beautiful painting.

Xie Weihan held the rose stem full of thorns in Shen Luyang’s hand without pain, and rescued the scarred palm, and the blood stained the slender and clean fingers.

Xie Weihan looked morbidly fascinated by the man who was eager to kiss him, and after a few seconds—

Without any hesitation, he firmly pressed the back of Shen Luyang’s head and deepened the kiss with an almost sadistic force.

A kiss soaked in blood and masochism.