Chapter 114

It was exactly the same peaceful day as many years ago, and Jiang Yi took care of him in every possible way, but now he is in a completely different state of mind.

It’s already winter, and the house is warmed by a charcoal fire, but the thirteen or fourteen-year-old girl looked at Yan Yiming curiously and lively.

No one here knows that she is the princess of Lin’an County, but seeing that she is extremely beautiful and loved by Jiang Yi, he asked her with a smile, “Did the girl quarrel with the young master? Why are you so unhappy?”

Yan Yiming didn’t want Jiang Yi to go to court and not see Jiang Yi, so he had to continue Jiang Yi’s topic, and changed the topic with the little girl, “How old are you this year?”

Why come to serve people at such a young age.

“As for the girl, I’m thirteen this year.” The little girl’s voice was like a silver bell, but her personality was rather likable. “Because our house is full of men except for the cook and aunt, it’s not that the girl is here, so the young master let me know.” Uncle Li looked for a reliable girl to take care of him, so Grandpa simply let me come.”

Yan Yiming looked at the little girl’s chubby face and smiled, “So you are Uncle Li’s granddaughter.”

A child is a child after all, and Yan Yiming’s random mention of many topics has quickly diverted attention. The little girl has never left the capital. She listened to Yan Yiming talking about the desolate northwest border and the extreme beauty of Suzhou and Hangzhou. Before I knew it, I even talked about what I had seen and heard when I traveled to Tibet in this world.

The little girl was surprised and amazed, exclaiming from time to time that she wanted to see it too.

When Jiang Yi came back, the little girl was still very excited. Yan Yiming took a look at Jiang Yi and turned to the kitchen to find the cook to ask what delicious food there is today. Now that he is confined here, the only thing worth looking forward to every day is Food cooked by the cook.

The little girl tidied up the house nimbly, she was young and bold, she wouldn’t even be afraid to see Jiang Yi, so she asked Jiang Yi, “My lord, girl has been to many places, have you been to so many places too?”

Jiang Yi picked up Yan Yiming’s strange novel by his pillow and asked her, “What did she tell you?”

“The girl said that there are wolves in the desert in the northwest. At night, the eyes of the wolves turn green and shine. She said that there is a place called Tibet in Tubo, which is far away from us. She said that most of the people there believed in Buddhism. When they die, they will be placed on a platform called a celestial burial platform…”

The little girl said with joy, but Jiang Yi didn’t see the slightest smile on his face. After the silence, there was even an incomprehensible pain.

He ordered the little girl to serve Yan Yiming, and the room was as silent as usual, Jiang Yi leaned on the chair and closed his eyes tightly, his handsome face was full of exhaustion, then he smiled wryly, and after a long time, he returned to his original appearance.

When Yan Yiming came back from the cook, Jiang Yi was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, as if he was in a deep sleep.

Yan Yiming glanced at it, turned around to go to the screen and changed his clothes. When he came out, Jiang Yi still maintained his proper posture. Yan Yiming paused and took a look, only to find that Jiang Yi was tired.

In the blink of an eye, it has been more than a month since he returned to the capital, Yan Yiming didn’t know if Jiang Yi had always been so busy in the past, or if it was just like this recently.

Looking down at Jiang Yi’s slightly frowned eyebrows even in deep sleep, after a while, Yan Yiming pulled off the quilt under his feet and gently covered Jiang Yi’s body, turned around and put some incense in the incense burner, and walked out slowly After leaving the room, he quietly closed the door.

Be careful, even when you open the door, there is no sound, the fragrance of concentration slowly dissipates, and the people in the room sleep peacefully.

Regardless of the indifference these days, the two still maintain a lot of caring, or the habit of being cared for.

Little Apple quietly watched Yan Yiming finish everything, and watched her sitting in a daze in the shelter by the small pond in the mansion. After a long time, she couldn’t hold back and asked her in a low voice, “Master, actually, it seems, I think You still care about Jiang Yi.”

Yan Yiming didn’t say a word, Little Apple was thinking about his digital head, and pulled out a lot of places where Yan Yiming treated Jiang Yi differently from the others, and continued as if to prove his point of view, “Look at him You have been coerced so much, and you have never been angry.”

“At any rate, we have been together for so many years with sincerity, and I will still care if I care about it.” However, Yan Yiming looked at the gray sky in the distance, “It’s just that there are many more things that I care about.”

She couldn’t accept living a life of being controlled by others like this.

Care, there is a good impression, even in reality, I have never seen such an outstanding person as Jiang Yi, childhood sweethearts have been together for many years, everyone will have a good impression, but anyway this is just a game, the game is over, the two of them will It’s time to leave.

And even if they were really together, she didn’t like this way. If it was really a relationship, it would have changed.

One is unwilling, and the other is mixed with too many other emotions. This is not normal, and it will not last long.

In her previous life, she had witnessed such a relationship between the two of them for more than 20 years. She was very familiar with such a tragedy, and she was also very disgusted.

Jiang Yi seemed really tired, if Yan Yiming didn’t wake him up, Jiang Yi might have slept until tomorrow morning.

The little girl came in with the dinner and laid out the dishes one by one. Jiang Yixu had just woken up and was still in a daze. Yan Yiming handed him the chopsticks. Jiang Yi took them in a daze and heard Yan Yiming say, ” You seem to be very tired recently.”

Jiang Yi’s hand holding the chopsticks froze for a moment, and quickly regained his composure, smiling as usual, “It’s just that there have been a lot of things going on in the court recently.”

Yan Yiming said “oh”, and then he was speechless. After dinner, Jiang Yi suddenly said to her, “Aming, wait for me for a few more days.”

Yan Yiming didn’t ask what you were doing for a few days, because he wasn’t very interested.

Until another half month later, the emperor ordered Shao Jingyu to lead his troops to the south, just to conquer King Jiangxia, and an unexpected person came to the mansion, Shao Jingyu.

Even though he had already heard Jiang Yi’s words, Shao Jingyu insisted on seeing Yan Yiming before leaving. Maybe it was because that person left for too long many years ago, or maybe it was because the princess of Lin’an always had something that he couldn’t tell. Familiarity, but also because maybe I will never see this person again in the future.

At the beginning, he avoided it, but now he is generous. Shao Jingyu said that maybe he would never see each other again, Yan Yiming laughed, “The general will return to Beijing one day, so why can’t we see each other again?”

Shao Jingyu raised his eyebrows and smiled, “So the princess doesn’t know yet.”

“Know what?” Yan Yiming was surprised.

“Jiang Yi, please resign from the official position, His Majesty has already agreed,” Shao Jingyu said, “Although I don’t like Jiang Yi’s character, it’s just that he is indeed a natural talent. It’s a pity to give up his official career.”

Yan Yiming was stunned in place, and Shao Jingyu left gracefully after setting off the bomb, just like a prank of revenge between children.

When Jiang Yi resigned, everyone in the court was shocked. Many people asked His Majesty to withdraw his order, but the emperor and the crown prince unanimously did not object. Jiang Yi wanted to leave, so they agreed.

Jiang Yi thanked the emperor and walked into the East Palace. Nangong Xuan was sitting on a chair in a daze for some reason, and he came back to his senses after seeing him come in.

Nangong Xuan, who returned to the capital again, seemed to be much more mature than before leaving. Perhaps he saw something that he had never seen clearly. Nangong Xuan sighed, “Leave now, when will you come back?”

Jiang Yi looked a little far away, as if counting the days day by day, and said after a while, “It’s the end of spring.”

Looking at his tired face, Nangong Xuan didn’t ask any more questions, but just patted Jiang Yi’s shoulder,

“Since that’s the case, at the end of next spring, I will wait for you to come back alone.”

Nangong Xuan recalled that a few days ago, he had asked Jiang Yi jokingly that he had finally begged for the life of Princess Lin’an, and he didn’t know when he would be able to drink the wedding wine for the two of them.

Nangong Xuan admitted that when he asked this sentence, his heart was sore. He thought that Jiang Yi would smile and say that it would be soon, but Jiang Yi didn’t say a word for a long time. It was not until he asked again that Jiang Yi seemed to be himself. He said to himself, “I can’t wait.”

How can we say that we can’t wait anymore, Nangong Xuan is puzzled, since the two are in love, why he said such a thing.

Jiang Yi smiled wryly, “Because even so, I still can’t keep her.”

What if? It’s not that she loves you madly, wishing she could only stick to you every day, so why does she need you to keep her in every possible way?

For the first time, Nangong Xuan discovered that the relationship between Jiang Yi and Princess Lin’an didn’t seem to be what they saw. When he thought it should be perfect, Jiang Yi was in more pain than ever.

When Jiang Yi returned to Jiangfu, Yan Yiming was sitting in a shelter by the lake in a daze, she seemed to like it very much.

Jiang Yi walked away slowly, and embraced Yan Yiming in his arms from behind. The person in his arms struggled for a while, and then leaned against Jiang Yi’s chest as if giving up.

“A Ming”, Jiang Yi called her, “Let’s go for a walk.”

Yan Yiming didn’t make a sound, and Jiang Yi didn’t feel embarrassed and continued to speak slowly, “We can go to Zhouzhuang in Suzhou, where the winter is warmer than here, and we can spend New Year’s Eve there and the 15th day, and then go in March Looking at peonies in Luoyang, you said it was a pity that you never saw peonies…”

“Jiang Yi”, Yan Yiming seldom called Jiang Yi by his name, “Are you crazy?”

Yan Yiming stood up and looked directly at him and said, “You are the Minister of Taichang Temple appointed by your descendants, the official residence of the third rank…”

Jiang Yi pressed his finger on her lips, his voice was still soft, “If you don’t mention this, just say whether you want to go or not.”

Yan Yiming took a breath and said bitterly, “I don’t want to.”

“Lie,” Jiang Yi smiled, “You obviously want to go, but you said you wanted to go when you were still in Jiang’s house, not just for you, but also for me, I want to go.”

It’s not prevarication, I really want to.

Yan Yiming failed to stop him, the news of Jiang Yi’s resignation had not yet been digested by the ruling and opposition parties, and he had already left Jinling.

Snow was quietly floating in the sky, falling into the canal and dissipating. Jiang Yi stood at the bow of the boat with a thin layer of snow on his shoulders. Against the background of Jiang Yi’s jade-white cheeks, he looked like a static statue.

After standing there for an unknown amount of time, Jiang Yi returned to the cabin, and Yan Yiming fell asleep peacefully, but clean clothes were placed on the chair beside the bed, and the warm hand stove was also put aside.

It’s like having nothing to do with the sleeping protagonist on the bed.

Jiang Yi smiled softly, holding an ordinary hand stove, but it seemed to be holding some rare treasure.

The boat passed many people on the canal. They disembarked in Suzhou and settled down in a small house in Zhouzhuang water town. People passing by looked curiously at this pair of young men and women with outstanding looks, and at the jade-like Brother Gongzi bought a sugar figurine for the girl, but the girl didn’t pick it up.

Someone laughed and whistled, and said with a smile that the daughter-in-law was angry, Yan Yiming gave the man a look, and grabbed the sugar figurine from Jiang Yi’s hand, and everyone laughed louder.

Jiang Yi was also laughing, thanked everyone and chased after him. When he returned to the small courtyard, the delicate sugar figurine was bitten hard, and the remaining half was stuck on the beautiful red plum in the garden.

On New Year’s Eve, the small water town was even more lively than the original Jiang Mansion. The warm-hearted aunt next door took Yan Yiming to make dumplings at home. Jiang Yi’s hands went together.

Jiang Yi teased a few children to play, the uncle not far away looked at him and laughed and said to Jiang Yi, “Little young man, you will have several children in a few years.”

Jiang Yi pinched the child’s face that was red from the cold, turned his head and thanked his uncle, turned his head to look at the busy figure in the kitchen, and looked away.

The dumplings were brought up, and the children jumped up and devoured them. Yan Yiming walked in from the outside, with a smile on his face that he hadn’t seen in many days. When Jiang Yi saw it, he even wanted to turn his head in panic. Yan Yiming was no longer as indifferent as before, she smiled and sat beside him, and even made dumplings for him herself.

Jiang Yi felt a dull pain in his heart, but it was accompanied by a hint of sweetness. When the dumpling was bitten open, Jiang Yi was stunned. There was a peanut in it. Jiang Yi suddenly turned his head to look at Yan Yiming, Yan Yiming But as if he didn’t know anything, he picked another one for the little fat boy sitting next to him.

The little fat boy devoured the dumpling, but there was no peanut in it.

Many years ago, that was the first year he came to Jiangfu. On New Year’s Eve alone, Yan Yiming came to spend New Year’s Eve with him. He ate a dumpling wrapped in copper plate. He said that next year, everything will go well for him.

On New Year’s Eve, such a festive day, he is no longer a child, but his eyes are still moist like eight years ago.

Yan Yiming finally stopped turning to him coldly, not because she gave up going home or because of other reasons, but she was finally ready.

Little Apple once asked her, what does it matter if she stays here for the rest of her life, isn’t it a good thing to live a whole life longer than others, Yan Yiming didn’t say much, just told her that she never thought it was a good thing .

The meaning of a person’s survival lies in memory. There are feelings, fetters and things she can’t let go of in memory. She is from that world.

But if she continues to live here, twenty-three, thirty years, and finally even sixty or seventy years, when the memory of this world slowly fades, which world is she from at that time? Now that she misses her relatives who are still in this world, she is still unwilling to resist. If after many years she slowly accepts the reality and truly accepts Jiang Yi, maybe they will be together, have children, and new memories. The fetters are formed again, will she not want to leave here again at that time?

Yan Yiming never dared to underestimate the power of time, under the passing of time, everything is possible.

Of course she wants to go back, even if she really can’t go back and can only wait for many years, she will choose someone, so that she may return to this world again after many years, and she is still the same as she was many years ago.

Before that, she would try her best to repay what she owed to Jiang Yi, just like how Jiang Yi cared for her back then.

On the fifteenth day, the entire water street was covered with fiery red lanterns. The two played together by guessing the lanterns. The ignorant child accidentally threw fireworks into the crowd. Jiang Yi pulled Yan Yiming away. But the back of his hand was scalded by Huo Huo.

Yan Yiming took Jiang Yi back home, carefully dipped in medicinal wine and rubbed it on the burnt area, Jiang Yi looked at her serious look and said suddenly, “Ah Ming, make another Luo Ying for me.”

“En”, Yan Yiming responded, and said again after a long while, “Let’s make up a few more.”

She waited for Jiang Yi to ask her why, but Jiang Yi didn’t ask, just smiled and said, “This is better.”

In the blink of an eye, the spring of another year has passed, and the spring in Jiangnan seems to be earlier than other places. The willow shoots on both sides of the river have already sprouted, and the scholars who come to Beijing in the early spring every three years are also preparing to go to Beijing.

Yan Yiming heard that the family not far away said that he was going to pay homage to Wenquxing, so that the children in the family could do well in the exam like Jiang Zhuangyuan back then. Jiang Zhuangyuan.

The white clothes are like snow, and there is a rippling in Yan Yiming’s heart. The young man in Tsing Yi was now the handsome young man.

Yan Yiming slowly put away his smile, looking at the clouds in the sky, the emperor’s time is approaching, and she should finally force him to go back.

They spent a period of comfortable and peaceful days as they did many years ago, leaving Zhouzhuang and going to Luoyang. In Luoyang in April, peonies are so beautiful that people are fascinated. The two walked through the streets of Luoyang. There were young ladies from noble families talking about the varieties of peonies. I don’t know if the children from far away have passed the exam.

Yan Yiming caressed the tender white stamens, and glanced at Jiang Yi.

Everyone is looking at their child’s high school, but they don’t think that the genius champion who won three consecutive rounds will give up everything for a woman.

Jiang Yi pretended not to hear, and dragged her to look at other flowers.

In the hustle and bustle, Yan Yiming seemed to hear what he said, but it was like a hallucination, he didn’t hear clearly, or he heard it wrong.

Yan Yiming finally made up Luo Ying, and when he returned to the mansion at night, Yan Yiming was going to replace him, but Jiang Yi held down his hand and said, “It’s not too late to change it later.”

Yan Yiming looked up at him, and suddenly said after a long time, “If there is no future.”

Jiang Yi’s eyes trembled, and he pressed his cold fingertips on his lips, blocking back what she was about to say.

“Don’t say it,” Jiang Yi said, “I don’t like it.”

Yan Yiming stared at him for a long time, and closed his eyes helplessly. That night, Jiang Yi held her tightly in his arms, and when he was half asleep and half awake, it seemed that Jiang Yi asked her, Ah Ming, do you remember? Can’t remember what day it is tomorrow.

what day?

Yan Yiming couldn’t remember that Jiang Yi’s birthday had passed, so there was still time left.

“It’s fine if you don’t remember,” Jiang Yi sighed, “Actually, it’s not a special day.”

Yan Yiming closed his eyes again, never knowing that Jiang Yi didn’t close his eyes all night.

It’s not that I can’t sleep, but I can’t bear to sleep.

When Yan Yiming woke up, he met Jiang Yi’s eyes. Yan Yiming froze, touched the trace of his blindness with his finger, frowned and said, “Didn’t sleep well?”

“No”, Jiang Yi looked away, “I slept well.”

Yan Yiming didn’t ask further, “Where are we going today?”

“Today”, Jiang Yi thought for a while, “Let’s stay in the mansion today.”

No one else, no other things, just stay together like this, Jiang Yi said.

Yan Yiming was a bit inexplicable, but he was really tired after going out for many days, so it was good to rest. The two of them drew pictures and played chess together in the study room. She said so, but her heart ached so badly that she couldn’t feel it.

Yan Yiming’s eyes hurt a little, he put down his pen and said, I don’t want to draw anymore.

“Let’s finish the painting,” Jiang Yi said, the figure of the woman in the painting has been outlined, “At least let’s finish painting the facial features.”

Usually, Jiang Yi always advised her not to read paintings and calligraphy under the lamp, but today was the first time, he was a little surprised but he didn’t refuse, it was already a long time when he filled in the familiar facial features of the woman one by one.

Yan Yiming blinked his sore eyes, “Let’s draw the rest tomorrow.”

Jiang Yi stood up, didn’t say yes, and didn’t say no, he pulled her into his arms and said slowly after a long time, “Thank you.”

What is there to thank, Yan Yiming smiled, and patted Jiang Yi on the shoulder, “It’s late, let’s go to bed earlier.”

“En”, Jiang Yi responded, “You go first.”

Having not rested all day, and having been up till now, Yan Yiming was very tired, so he just woke up early after washing up, and fell asleep before Jiang Yi came over.

That night, she dreamed of Jiang Yi again, and dreamed that she was still locked in the coffin that had never seen the light of day, but for some reason, the coffin suddenly opened.

Jiang Yi looked at her and said you go, I won’t keep you around anymore, Yan Yiming wanted to ask him why, but Jiang Yi had already turned and left.

Yan Yiming suddenly woke up from his dream. The bed curtain covered the light of the dawn and he couldn’t see clearly. Jiang Yi’s face disappeared from the dream. Yan Yiming suddenly covered his heart and called out anxiously. Jun.

But no one answered.

Only then did Yan Yiming seem to realize that this morning seemed extraordinarily cold, she turned her head and looked, the pillow was empty, and no one would hear her voice and embrace her in her arms.

Yan Yiming was stunned for a long time, then suddenly pulled back the curtain and got out of bed.

The room was like yesterday, but there was one person missing, one painting missing, and the unfinished painting was gone, replaced by a letter that had already been written.

Jiang Yi’s familiar words were printed in front of his eyes, and he called her A Ming gently as before.

He said he was leaving.

He said thank her for the time she gave him, and thank her for being willing to stay in his world for such a period of time.

He still loves her, he is still reluctant to leave her, but there will be separation after reunion, she still wants to leave, she is still unhappy, he can’t see her unhappy, he can’t see her sad, so he finally chooses to let go.

He said that he wished her to be happy in the days to come. He said that when he went back, he would not think of him who hurt her again. He said that he hoped that there would be someone who loved him more than him to love her.

“Thank you for reminding me again that there will be no more nightmares on this day, you never owed me anything, you paid it off.”

Four years ago today, when he rushed back from the capital, he didn’t see her smile, only her eyes were full of whiteness. Every day in the future, he would dream of the day that made him desperate and painful, and he couldn’t get rid of it. forget.

Thank her for always being by his side four years later. In the days to come, he will think of every moment they spent together on this day, and he will never be haunted by nightmares.

I kept you in private for so long, made you afraid for so long, if you repay me everything, you will not owe me anything.

“From now on”

“You are free at last.”

Yan Yiming finally remembered yesterday, Jiang Yi asked her in a probing tone if she could remember what day it was today, the spring four years ago suddenly turned back to this day, the boy kneeling in front of the door in agony let go of his most paranoid Emotion fulfilled her.

But he is still thanking her.

At that moment, Yan Yiming seemed to hear his gentle voice, she covered her eyes, but she still burst into tears.