Chapter 117

Later, when her mother’s illness became more and more serious, and she even wanted to escape from this world, Yan Yiming thought, if she hadn’t left S city because of the fear and irritability in her heart, and hadn’t left her mother’s side, would she not have changed? So sensitive and so easily hurt.

The injury caused by the catalysis of an illness caused Yan Yiming to separate from his mother. Even though she could understand the patient’s uncontrollable behavior, she would never forget her mother’s words.

She said she was the original sin.

In order to get her father’s so-called “forgiveness”, she even wanted to drag her to hell. The doctor said that this is the fruit of the pain and said that she should not blame her mother, but Yan Yiming consulted other doctors, he said All uncontrollable behavior after illness is the most true reflection in the heart.

So the pity and hesitation in my heart gradually disappeared.

She didn’t tell anyone what she was thinking in her heart, and she never explained anything to her mother after she woke up. She gradually found that the air after leaving this house was much fresher than before.

But there are some things and identities that can never be shaken off.

After her daughter left here, the sensitive mother seemed to realize that she missed and depended on her daughter much more than she imagined. She always called her daughter affectionately, non-stop every day, as if she had found her daughter again. object of complaint.

But the daughter who was always patient with her back then seems to have changed a lot.

The patient didn’t think about it too much, but just called her more and more tirelessly. She didn’t know Yan Yiming’s courses, and didn’t know when she was free or busy. Whenever she wanted to, she would hear her voice.

Even though Yan Yiming no longer loves her mother as much as before, he has never said a harsh word to her, but when she is too busy to get distracted, the phone still rings relentlessly, as if urging her to die It’s annoying.

She turned off the phone, her ears were finally quiet, and she didn’t turn it on until night. There was no mother’s phone number, but her father called her for some reason.

A man who has never dared to speak seriously will never hear any emotion when he speaks, but at this moment Yan Yiming can hear his anger, he asked her what she said to her mother, do you know your mother…

Yan Yiming suddenly gave birth to unreasonable absurdity, she interrupted her father’s words with a sneer, and the depression and irritability of many days turned into piercing words in an instant.

She said what qualifications do you have to say such things to her.

Because you planted it, why should she accept the fruit she doesn’t like.

The father was silent on the other end of the phone for a long time, and all the words were blocked in his throat. Yan Yiming listened to the silence on the phone, feeling an indescribable joy. She remembered the smile of the woman and her father when she was young, and thought of his Day after day of indifference.

“What do you have…”

“Your mother is missing.”

Before he finished speaking, his father’s tired voice overwhelmed hers, and Yan Yiming froze on the spot, not knowing what to say for a while, and finally stammered, “…then go find it…”

“She bought a plane ticket to your place.”

Because of her daughter’s refusal to answer the phone, she didn’t call her again, but went directly to the city where her daughter was without telling everyone.

When Yan Yiming rushed to the airport, he touched the position of his heart, obviously very disappointed, but he was still worried when he heard her running out alone. She was always a mother who was held in the palm of her hand. Did not leave home without being accompanied by someone.

The plane hadn’t arrived yet, so she waited and waited at the airport, and when she couldn’t wait, she started looking for her from one place to another, and finally found her. She was even wearing the long skirt she wore at home, and slippers on her feet.

Yan Yiming’s heart finally sank, she let out a long sigh of relief and called out to her, the mother turned her head, didn’t smile or say anything, and slapped Yan Yiming when Yan Yiming was completely unprepared. on her face.

Her proud mother came here after being rejected by her daughter, just to give her a slap in the face just to teach her a lesson.

The slap was in Yan Yiming’s heart from this moment, and for the first time, she felt hatred in her heart, towards her mother, towards the woman in front of her that she had cared about for so many years.

She is tall and has long legs, so much taller than her petite mother. Pedestrians coming and going are watching the mother and daughter curiously. Yan Yiming just looks at her condescendingly, all expressions are hidden in her heart, she He said to his mother in a cold tone that he had never had before, “Since you can come by yourself, it shouldn’t be a problem to go back by yourself.”

The mother, whose face was still young and beautiful, froze in place. She imagined that it was her teaching her daughter’s rude behavior, and it was her daughter’s obedient appearance of admitting her mistakes, but it shouldn’t be what she is now.

She suddenly regretted what she did just now. The daughters of so many people must have felt ashamed. Maybe the slap was too hard. She hurriedly chased after her daughter, but she couldn’t catch up at all.

She stood alone at the airport for a long time, so long that she didn’t know what happened, and was finally brought home by her uncle and father who came from S city.

When Yan Yiming received a call from his uncle saying that his mother had been found, he said “oh” and was about to hang up the phone. His uncle told her that his mother was really sick, so don’t worry too much about it.

Yan Yiming didn’t even want to say “Oh”, and ended the boring conversation.

Uncle rubbed his brows and leaned weakly on the car seat. The mistake that shouldn’t have started from the very beginning was deliberately ignored by them, until now it can no longer be saved.

He couldn’t persuade his niece, so he could only gently tell his sister that Yan Yiming is very busy now, so it’s better not to call her every day. After a long time, Yan’s mother was stunned, as if she wanted to ask something, but she didn’t ask after all.

Uncle thought she had heard it, and left the house with a sigh of relief.

A few days later, he went straight to here in an even more embarrassing posture.

Mother Yan, for the second time, committed suicide.

Although she was sick, she was still smart when she was sober. She revealed her daughter’s unusual indifference and her family’s concealment from her. She quietly avoided everyone and found the surveillance at home.

She saw her walking into her daughter’s room tremblingly holding a fruit knife. The screams from her daughter’s room hurt her eardrums, and then everyone rushed in and pulled her out. Arms that couldn’t stop bleeding, and a face that was paler than she had ever seen before.

Mama Yan suddenly understood.

She watched this video over and over again, as if being abused, and finally left here quietly, and once again hid in the room and cried for a long time. When the servants came to knock on the door in the afternoon, there was no movement in the room again.

Yan Yiming once talked about all kinds of things in his family with a close friend. The friend couldn’t hide his surprise and said that the plots that appeared in this kind of scene would actually appear in reality. Looking at Yan Yiming’s beautiful and delicate face, she thought of many When people talk about Yan Yiming’s envy and love, they suddenly feel a little sad.

God is always fair, but behind such a glamorous appearance, the cruelest truth is hidden.

Yan Yiming told her that she never wanted to go back, even in the future, but on the third day after this sentence, Yan Yiming set foot on the way home again.

The mother was rescued again fortunately, but the psychiatrist found her. She said that her mother chose to commit suicide because of her guilt towards her.

He said it was a good thing and a bad thing.

The bad thing is that her illness is serious again, but the good thing is that her inexplicable guilt towards her father seems to have been buried. The only thing left in her mind is her daughter. The doctor hopes that she can cooperate with the treatment. Maybe the mother’s illness can be cured. better.

She has never said a word, so many people came to persuade her, they said that she is her mother anyway, she is the one who gave birth to her, Yan Yiming wondered absurdly, should he choose to end like her Only by taking your own life can you not have to bear such responsibilities.

But she still wants to live. Apart from this terrible family, she still has a lot of things she wants to do.

She didn’t listen to them or left City S. Later, she heard that her mother had finally received treatment and started taking medicine, but she never received a call from her mother. Yan Yiming thought that life would go on like this, but after the end of the term, she He was dropped out of school for no reason.

Her father came to pick her up in person, and he said it didn’t matter, she could go directly to a certain first-rate university in S City, he said that her mother missed her very much, and she said that her mother needed her very much.

Yan Yiming finally cried.

She has never done anything wrong, she was the one who was hurt since she was a child, she was by her mother’s side since she was a child, and she was the one who never really hated her father since she was a child, but why should she bear all the consequences in the end.

Yan Yiming couldn’t figure out what he had done wrong. The grievances of the previous generation had passed like this for more than 20 years, and it was his irrelevant self who finally turned back.

Yan Yiming’s absurd thought may not be irrelevant, just like what his mother said, she is guilty.

She is the original sin, and her birth is a sin, so she has to bear everything since she was born.

Her mother needs to see her, she needs to tell her mother that she has never blamed her, she needs to accompany her seriously and patiently and tell her that she still loves her, but everything happened, seeing her mother again, Yan Yiming couldn’t even I can’t even laugh.

Mother never said a harsh word to her again, she always carefully asked her what she did and ate today, and how she was feeling, just like the humbleness she used to face her father. I was afraid that I would make her angry by saying the wrong sentence.

When she was awake, she told the aunt next to her that if she got sick, don’t let Yiming see her. She seemed to have forgotten the father who was engraved on her heart at the beginning, and only Yan Yiming was left in her heart.

My mother moved to a sunny villa in the suburbs, and the doctor advised her to visit her every two days and talk to her, but Yan Yiming didn’t want to go, she didn’t want to see her, let alone her cautious appearance, She just wanted to leave, but she couldn’t.

When she was in a bad mood, she used various methods to relieve her mood, and her words were much sharper and meaner than before. She dreamed of leaving here to find peace, until one day, she finally left here.