Chapter 119 “The First Life of Qiao Xun” as seen by the great will

“The Life of Qiao Xun” as seen by the great will of 119 since polluting the world

When Yu Xiaoshu saw that Qiao Xun did not show extreme performance, he couldn’t help thinking that he was still him, even if his emotions were out of balance, he always maintained his usual attitude and hardly showed his weak side.

She relaxed a little bit.

Just before that, she thought about whether he would have to find her after she told Yihong the result.

Now it seems that such worries are undoubtedly over-considered.

She sat down again, resting her elbows on the edge of the desk, and said:

“I think, Yihong didn’t let me tell you about her situation, maybe because she was afraid that you would blame yourself for it. In fact, she herself knows very well that even if she doesn’t help you to transfer her fate, her personal will will eventually be ushered in. Disintegration. It’s unavoidable.”

Qiao Xun sat on the sofa, lying on his back, looking at the hanging lamp unfocused,

“However, bearing the stigma of fate is a very painful process. That kind of destruction to the will is like countless bugs, gnawing at the nerves. She could have easily walked to her destination, but now, this is destined to be a painful process. .”

If there is no self-blame for the pain Yihong has to go through, then Qiao Xun is a pure devil, not a living person who has been practicing his own life.

Yu Xiaoshu also understands this. Therefore, she did not deliberately emphasize it again. Dominating others is a bad habit.

“My Healing Game”

“For Yihong, when Agnes died, the ‘self’ she held to had disappeared. For her, Agnes was her sustenance as a ‘Yihong’ in her complete humanity.” She looked at Qiao Xun, “You should have known for a long time that after Agnes left, her whole person changed. Especially when she gradually understood her destination, the path she took was more important than any other. Everyone should be cruel. In the future, the only thing she can have a little sustenance on is to feel your existence through fatalism. ”

Yu Xiaoshu took a long breath,

“So, Qiao Xun, don’t think she paid only for you. More, it’s her personal sustenance… Let go.”

Qiao Xun shook his head,

“Don’t worry about me falling into a trap of self-doubt. Sometimes I don’t think complicated. For me, it’s just that I can’t let her feel the pain alone. After all, she’s been through so much, and she feels like a special friends to take a look.”

Yu Xiaoshu was lying on the table, like a student resting between classes,

“The more powerful a person is, the more afraid that they are no longer themselves. Those who stand on the top of the finite spend their whole life’s worth and blood to pursue the infinite, but they just don’t want to be a puppet of fate. Be yourself. However, ‘being yourself’ is a great luxury in a limited world.” She tilted her head and looked at Qiao Xun with a faint gaze, “So, when I heard you say firmly, When I want to be myself, I feel like you are a brave warrior with blood, and I feel like a child who hasn’t grown up yet. Sincere and simple…”

Sincere and simple.

It was the first time that Qiao Xun heard someone describe himself like this. If someone else said that, he would only think that the other party didn’t understand him at all. But Yu Xiaoshu…he couldn’t deny it.

Because she has always been a person who looks directly at the essence through all appearances.

“Anyway, thank you.”

Yu Xiaoshu shook his head slightly,

“Nothing to thank. After all, I can’t really watch you lose to fate.”

“Fate, what is it?” Qiao Xun said.

Yu Xiaoshu did not answer this question directly, but repeated the question asked at the beginning,

“How do you feel about this confrontation with fate?”

“Feeling…” Qiao Xun’s consciousness sank a little, and he began to reproduce the original feeling in his mind, “Casiopeia is about to disintegrate under the attack of fate. I established a connection with her through Cassiopeia’s desire, and then, I took her place with the claiming trait of ‘jealousy’ and sent her back to the real world. Then, I myself was directly attacked by fate. The attack of fate… in a very strange form, I I can’t tell what principle is used. I can intuitively feel it…”

Having said that, he fell silent.

Yu Xiaoshu didn’t bother him. She knew that fate’s attack was not well understood.

Qiao Xun closed his eyes, completely released the subjective activities of his body, and immersed himself in his mind.

He rarely does it. Because it is the equivalent of putting yourself in a situation where you are completely unable to cope with changes in the environment.

The world in his mind, because it contains a lot of information, looks complicated, like a multi-dimensional space, filled with nonlinear spiral structures everywhere. In the deepest part of consciousness, there is a pure land that no one has ever set foot in, and it is also a forbidden land.

The wide seven steps sit neatly and constantly at the end of consciousness, the deepest.

The seven steps have been lit up, overflowing with golden divine light.

At first, Qiao Xun thought that these seven steps symbolized the seven characteristics of demons. But now, he thought, there might be a deeper expression. Because, when his will was branded with fate and dilapidated everywhere, only here was still not disturbed.

Above the seven steps is a will.

That will is different from all the wills he has encountered before. But it will also give him a feeling of reaching the same destination by different paths. It seems that any kind of will, in the end, can be the appearance of the will above the god’s long step.

The will in the depths of consciousness never talks to him, just stays there alone and quietly.

Qiao Xun couldn’t help but wonder, did this great will witness how fate attacked him?

He slowly set foot on the long steps of ascending the gods.

The first… As his footsteps fell, the world of his consciousness was suddenly turbulent. Those non-linear spiral structures roared like giant machines.

But outside what he didn’t know, Yu Xiaoshu suddenly stood up in surprise. Because, she gradually could not feel the existence of Qiao Xun. Even though Qiao Xun was lying on the sofa only a few steps away from her, his existence was becoming more and more hazy.

Her heartbeat became a little faster. She, who has never been nervous, felt the interference of tension on her body for the first time.

She had no clue about what happened suddenly, and couldn’t help but want to wake Qiao Xun. But after several struggles, he gave up the plan to wake him up. Look at him intently. She decided to pull him back at the last moment when she couldn’t feel him at all.

In the world of consciousness, Qiao Xun is experiencing his whole life.

When stepping on the first long steps of ascending the gods. He went back to the night he first learned what evolution was. That night, the eggs of the tainted creature frogman invaded his body, fed on flesh and blood, and turned him into a walking dead host. However, the power of “gluttony” can be vented. From a third perspective, he witnessed how he stepped into the evolutionary path of “gluttony” that night.

Memory will not be so clear. Because, he can’t always pay attention to all the details in the environment. But now, on the long steps of the mountain, what he sees is completely real, just like the time and space he traveled through, and he personally went to that night.

Therefore, he is sure that what he is experiencing now is definitely not his memory.

So what is it?

He raised his head and looked at the will at the highest point. That deep, lonely will.

At this moment, he suddenly understood. The past that he has experienced is what the great will sees.

This long step to the gods is not the long step of evolution and demons, but the long step leading to the great will.

Qiao Xun continued to move forward.

Every time the footsteps fall, they are experiencing “his past” seen by the great will.

When a person examines his life, only memory is the most intimate. But now, for Qiao Xun, the life that the great will sees is the most real, and it cannot be fabricated or tampered with.

A month in the winter city, the “resurrection” investigation event, and the night when the “lust” was harvested;

The first sea train adventure, the promotion of spokesperson in the gambling game with love, and the harvest of “greed”;

Encounter scavengers, capture the “book” that is the root of the world, chat with Xin Yaxingjun on the night watch street, and feel the true meaning of “lazy”;

The Akubai Khanate explored the secrets of the “War Seeds”, faced the might of the gods for the first time, was decapitated for the first time, resurrected from the dead for the first time, and sought the power of “rage” in the outbreak;

Returning to the sea train, the uprising at the bottom of the train, the acquaintance with Agnes, in a gorgeous performance of “seeking liberation”, seeing demigods, and feeling the “jealousy” that cannot be loved;

The night of phantom Chang’an, Guanyue’s return home, the impression of millions of years and the moon, the source of pollution and evolution of the world, in the self-awakening, stepping into the “arrogant” lofty realm…

Since then, he has embarked on a journey to the heavens and the world.

In the world of machinery and truth, waiting for the “weather” of the future, he witnessed the destruction and rebirth of the mythical world;

In the world of “mountains and the full moon”, harvesting “stillness”, Jasmine, the princess of the moon, is the impression he left on the world;

In a desperate apocalypse, witness the collapse of order;

In the realm of rotting and stinking fallen angels, glimpse the limited secrets;

In the gorgeous and brilliant paradise, feel the combination of “concept and concrete”, gain a “light” and a “rule”;

Finally, set foot on the return journey of the stars and witness the peak of destiny. In grief, seek inner support and comfort, and deliver promises on the difficult road of becoming oneself.

From the perspective of great will, Qiao Xun’s road to God’s ascension and the road to his destination is displayed intact.

The second personal experience made him realize what is “reality” and what is “existence”.

He crossed the last long golden steps and faced the great will.

He had a feeling that as long as he embraced that great will, he would know how fate attacked him, and even, he could know more… Perhaps, the most rooted secret was hidden in it.

But when he was about to move on, a cordial call sounded in his ear,

“Joe tour…”

He listened carefully.

“Joe tour…”

It was Yu Xiaoshu’s voice.

A tone full of worry and tension made him sober. He suddenly realized that he was so immersed in this real experience that he almost regarded it as the real world.

Looking at the still lonely, still profound great will, he opened his craving and left here.

He knew that now was not the time to explore the ultimate mystery.

After opening his eyes, he saw that Yu Xiaoshu’s face was almost on his body. Tension and worry were written between her eyebrows. Seeing him open her eyes, she breathed a sigh of relief.

“You finally woke up.”

Qiao Xun did have the feeling that he had just woken up,

“Has it been a long time?”

“You’ve been lying down for almost a day. But it’s fine. We’re in the finish line, and we don’t have time. We’re stationary relative to the finite world outside.”

Qiao Xun nodded, then sighed,

“Unfortunately, I couldn’t find a clear feeling. Fate’s attack did not leave me with an intuitive feeling.”

Yu Xiaoshu was not surprised.

“That’s the mystery of fate. It’s been here, but it can’t keep it, it can’t be found. It’s always there, but it can’t be felt.”

“So, what is fate?”

“After I confronted fate, I completed a thorough conceptualization, and since then, it has become a ‘world’. Before me, there was the first finite world, but I don’t know who it is or where it is. From my perspective In this world, fate may be the first finite world, with the highest and insurmountable attitude, governing the entire ‘finite’.”

“Then, what’s the end point? What’s the end point?”

Yu Xiaoshu said,

“Only the end point and the uncultivated void are places that fate cannot influence. The void is of course needless to say. As for the end point… I never believed that it appeared naturally. The power it manifested, and the effect it caused… means.”

“means?”

“Yes.” Yu Xiaoshu relaxed and said with a slight smile, “The end point is like the stopper in the bathtub, and the finite world is the water in the bathtub. In my opinion, the most critical question is, what is this bathtub. ”

An easy-to-understand metaphor.

Yu Xiaoshu let out a sigh of relief,

“Of course, it is a difficult thing for us who exist in the bathtub to understand the bathtub. There are not many existences that have the ability to unplug the bathtub. I don’t know if it is. Who, but when ‘he’ shows up, it will be known eventually.”

Qiao Xun nodded. Yu Xiaoshu always gave him a sense of reliability, even though she sometimes seemed to be “playing the world”.

“By the way, what happened to you before?” Yu Xiaoshu asked seriously, “I almost can’t feel your existence.”

Qiao Xun thought that it should be when he set foot on the long steps of ascending the gods.

“Can’t feel my presence? On what level?”

“On the level of existence. If you disappear completely, all traces of you in the finite will disappear. To this extent.” Yu Xiaoshu explained the previous situation very seriously.

Sounds serious.

Even if it is disintegrated by fate, it will not reach this level.

Qiao Xun couldn’t help frowning. Is it possible that touching the great will in the depths of consciousness is equivalent to the disappearance of self?

Can’t think of a reason, he said,

“I’m just thinking about it normally.”

“That’s it…I’m confused, but it’s fine if it’s nothing.” Yu Xiaoshu didn’t choose to think too much, he stood up straight, stretched his back, and said, “You should stay here to recuperate for a while. Yihong moved away, but her will has been hurt after all. Don’t think about other things until she recovers.”

Qiao Xun did not object, and nodded obediently.

“Outside, what’s going on?”

Yu Xiaoshu said,

“The casting of the Origin Furnace is a sure thing. Now the only two uncertainties are who will ignite the first fire in the furnace and who will master the ‘Origin’.”

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