About recent updates

   About the latest update

  The author has recently failed to upgrade his degree, and his state is not very good. As a student of journalism and communication, when the online rate is about 10%, and there are still 460 places left, we still have no chance to continue education.

   Anyway, the state is very poor, and a lot of hard work has not been rewarded. That kind of feeling is not good.

  Eleven was not born in a harmonious and happy family and grew up with a younger sister who was favored by his father.

   Now that I’m so old, I don’t have any expectations anymore, but there’s always something in my heart that I can’t tolerate, that is, being told that I’m a child born to a mother but not raised by a mother.

  My stepmother said about me, but I didn’t expect my sister to say the same to me after the divorce and had a fight with her before the exam.

   Just two days before the exam, my father came back with my sister. I was stressed and out of control and had a fight with my father. I cried all afternoon that day.

   I didn’t live at home that day and went to Nanchang the next day, but I never thought that I would have a fever when I woke up on the morning of the exam.

   Of course, I didn’t do well in the exam. Soon after I got home, I heard the news that my sister had been admitted to the best high school, and I couldn’t hold back.

   And I, of course, fell off the list a few days ago.

   Up to now, I have not received an apology from my father, only most of the family have told me that I am older and need to be sensible.

   I am in a very complicated mood right now, uncomfortable and confused.

   I spent a lot of time preparing for the exam, and I also spent a lot of money and energy.

   Now I have no money, no energy, no hope, and nothing to do.

   Although many people told me that this is not my reason, this is fate, let me accept my fate and forgive me, but I am not willing.

   After adjusting for many days, my mood has not been high, and I can’t adjust it.

   I’m going out to look for a job in two days, but I’m still confused.

   Maybe soon I’ll get back on my feet, but not now.

   Two years after graduating from a junior college, you can take the postgraduate entrance examination with the same academic ability. I also applied for an adult undergraduate degree. In a few days, I will start preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination while working.

   I now owe 3 days to update, the day after tomorrow at the latest, I will adjust myself and I will update normally.

   After writing this, I actually hesitated for a long time whether to post it or not.

   At night, I still can’t write a word, looking at the computer, I feel like a stone has been pressed in my heart.

  I’m almost in self-denial now, and I even feel that I can’t do anything, and I’ll fail in everything I do.

   I know that my current state is not right, but I have no way to change myself.

   In reality, there is no angel of salvation, only oneself who swallows emotions.

   (end of this chapter)