Chapter 81

At 1:10 in the afternoon, the road traffic in the city was still extremely congested. Gu Xizhi drove through the streets, and was scolded by the driver after being dumped several times because of the speed of the car.

Being late often makes the fearless crazy, but time never forgives.

The road near the concert hall is not as flocked by media reporters as imagined. A chance glimpse on the elevated road shows the gorgeous atmosphere of the double-sail concert hall on the water, and the well-manicured green lawn spreads across the entrance of the building surrounded by water on three sides. 100 meters, the modern white enamel pure architectural space is full of elegance and romance.

After getting off the elevated road, the car drove along the lengthy granite road, but the deserted road along the way made Gu Xizhi more and more uneasy.

When approaching a row of white fences, Gu Xizhi parked his car on the side of the road. When he was about to approach the fence, he saw a black figure sitting on a treetop, which surprised Gu Xizhi. After a closer look, he found that he was indeed sitting on a treetop.

He was wearing a pure white thin shirt with a dignified French square collar. The color matching of the collar and folded sleeves was particularly outstanding. The silk printed tie and the exquisite black agate platinum-plated cufflinks showed a bit Very luxurious and distinguished, the whole looks very elegant.

After confirming that he was Shen Ya, Gu Xizhi was stunned for a while because of his lazy posture, and he hesitated because of his closed eyes when he wanted to say something. This state lasted for half a minute, Shen Ya’s voice Accidentally appeared first.

“Inside her.”

Gu Xizhi looked at him more carefully, but he was still half leaning on the tree trunk with his eyes closed, his side face seemed to be sunken into the shadows, and he couldn’t see his expression clearly.

“…Thank you.” Gu Xizhi thought for a long time and only replied this sentence, and quickly ran to the music square.

After crossing the music square and entering the concert hall, Gu Xizhi was disoriented by the art gallery about ten meters away. He followed the signs to the second floor, and the terraced golden hall was empty. Rows of auditoriums are like golden waves of wheat.

Qu Xizhi couldn’t find Qu Xizhi back and forth, so Gu Xizhi walked anxiously along the long corridor to the annex building. When he was about to reach the western restaurant, the sound of a piano wafted indistinctly. Gu Xizhi followed the sound and looked out the glass window. At a glance, he was slightly startled.

In winter, the sun is thin, and the velvet-like clouds overlap for thousands of miles. The dark green hills surround the water, and the landscape area behind the concert hall is sparsely forested. The large dead branches make the winter gray, and only the plum blossoms are deserted. Add a touch of peachy color to the space.

The beautiful woman faces the lake and sits in front of the black piano under the trellis. The white dress that stretches to the floor is like a blooming hibiscus. The slow and sad C minor tore the sunlight out of the cracks. More clear and elegant.

Even if you don’t see her face, the always straight back is full of identification like a label.

Gu Xizhi went downstairs along the escalator, stepped on the sound of lingling water and ran towards the landscape area, but when he was about to approach her, he suddenly dared not take a step forward.

The sun penetrates the branches, the light and shadow mottled the solemn white, and confused the petals all over the ground with the blooming skirts. The pathetic sonata she pointed to was beautiful and almost lost its sense of disobedience, but the repeated first movement made it full of depression and heaviness.

Gu Xizhi stood quietly behind her, but the distance of two meters seemed to be separated by vicissitudes of life.

The sound of the piano under Qu Xizhi’s finger became more and more restrained and sad.

“When I was young, my mother told me that my grandparents and my father were all very successful. They have a certain influence in this society. If they make a slight mistake in their words and deeds, they may be caught by the media and even criticized by the public. ”

The sound of the piano reflects the flowing water, and the pink and white plum petals hang their heads down and sway with the wind.

Her voice is gentle and beautiful, “When I was five years old, my mother learned painting, musical instruments, calligraphy, and etiquette. She said that the environment she was born in was perfect. She could provide the best food, clothing, education, and etiquette. She also said that the environment she was born in was cruel. Yes, because the environment of life dictates that you must be a well-bred and elegant lady, like your companions around you.”

“At that time, most of the girls around me were from the same family background. Their average age was only seven or eight years old, but they would gracefully spread the tablecloth on their knees when eating in western restaurants. They never made a sound when eating, facing friends and Strangers will smile politely. They are all little princesses, but they never speak loudly or lose their temper because one of the signs of self-cultivation is the ability to control their emotions. They need to be posted. on this label.”

“Mother Yin Jun is very strong, because her elder sister is naturally rebellious and was scolded by her grandma for corrupting her virtues. She was even more strict with her childhood.”

“Arranged to learn ballet with her since childhood, not for this dance, but for a more elegant and beautiful figure. In her eyes, a well-dressed lady should always step on high heels, no matter whether it will hurt her feet or not, no matter what happens Be calm and graceful.”

“She is very strict. She is never sloppy about walking and standing postures, and she has high requirements for etiquette and conversation. Here, as long as there are elders eating at the same table, no matter when they chat, they are not allowed to leave the table early. Here, they should Understand art, fashion, economics and even politics in order to face any social interaction. Here, different wines must be put in different wine glasses, and the posture of holding the wine glass and the method of pouring the wine can never be wrong.”

“Although I don’t like her education, but the surrounding environment is like this, even if it is a bit painful, I gradually get used to these formal etiquettes that have nothing to do with my nature.”

“Under her various strong teachings, I gradually learned how to stand up more gracefully, how to smile politely and yet kindly, how to control my emotions, and how to leave a comfortable atmosphere in the first conversation. Impressions, sometimes in the face of a praised lady, it feels like getting along with yourself is full of hypocrisy that cannot touch the soul.”

“For a long time, I thought that girls should be so dignified and decent. It wasn’t until I met more different girls because I changed schools that I realized that they had different poses full of sexual emotions when they laughed.”

“When I was ten years old, my mother had a school celebration. The school invited many students who had left school and famous people. Both my mother and my mother were invited. Later I found out that they were alumni. When my mother came back that day, she brought a lot of photos. There are pictures of her giving a speech, chatting, and a group photo of her with her old classmates, but what makes me sad is one of her photos with her mother and daughter.”

“Mom is very spoiled, so even though the distance is far away and it’s inconvenient, I still bring it here for fun. In that photo, Mom and Mom are standing under the tree, standing in front of the two of them, with the corners of their mouths raised, as if they want nothing but happiness. I don’t know, it’s a very enviable thing for a girl to grow up beautifully and smile so naturally, my mother told me that the girl in the photo is also called Xizhi when she stared at the photo, but the difference is that her surname is Gu.”

“Maybe I didn’t understand, but my first feeling at that time was why our names were so similar but the difference was so big, and our smiles were so sunny and full of ugly hypocrisy. Don’t even laugh happily, but the same name is Xi In other words, why do you have to smile so happily.”

“The name is really a terrible thing for the pair. When I was ten years old, I spent a whole summer in the piano room learning various musical instruments, but as long as I looked up and saw the picture, I would cry all the time, but I still cried after crying. I want to continue to learn, I think I was envious at that time.”

“Maybe it’s because her mentality was gradually distorted, and she began to envy this kind of person. Later, she noticed that Lin Mingling was the only one around her who could pose in two different ways. At that time, she naively thought that despite the appearance required by her elders, she was actually brave and casual. Yes, so during the two years from the age of fourteen to fifteen, the biggest mistake I made so far was to try to protect her.”

“It’s a pity that growing up makes me understand more truths, and also benefits from a more mature understanding of education. At the age of sixteen, I gradually alienated her. She was unexpectedly reluctant, and even hysterical several times. Until her birthday, she gave her a gift and refused. I would like to accept it, she stayed at the door of her house for a whole night, and when she was about to go to school the next morning, she was found sitting on the lawn in front of the house with disheveled clothes and crying.”

“My living environment was already depressing, and my mental state gradually deteriorated when I encountered this kind of thing, and I was always full of guilt when I faced her afterwards. Unable to accept her feelings, finally provoked her anger.”

“Time is the best medicine after all. After a long period of psychological adjustment, people’s condition has improved a lot. The life seen in the media at the age of 20 has become more colorful. At that time, the desperate person regarded it as another world, and collected information about it. All the information, looking at growing up, looking at falling in love with boys, and after finding out that I am not a good woman, I desperately want to drag her out of the quagmire. This is also what I want to have forever, and what I want to have forever. At that time, the nature of only thinking of getting close, being good, and wanting to maintain was a pathological compensation for myself, and had nothing to do with it.”

“The more morbid the relationship, the less I dare to mention it, and I never even dare to tell how much I like it. The more time passes, the more obvious it is that I have always been two lonely individuals, with thoughts and actions that cannot be dominated, and cannot be liked by the compliant heart. I can’t let never leave, but I still want to protect so much, I can’t even imagine disappearing from my side.”

“Being a vegetarian is because I believe in the existence of sin, but I am actually afraid of sin. When I was looking for Bo Yiqing, I vaguely thought about these consequences, but whether it is a fluke or numbness, I am willing to go to hell. I want to be closer to do this. It’s a pity that instead of bringing us closer, it pushed us farther.”

“After thinking about the reason for leaving carefully, I understand the position that I will make the same choice a hundred times when I look back, and I also understand the feeling of not wanting to be compared with.”

“It’s just getting less and less understood.”

“I am willing to kneel down every day to ask my mother’s forgiveness, but I can be cruel and never look at it. I am clearly wearing the ring I gave you, but I can walk away resolutely for more than 800 days and nights. I don’t understand why I looked at Tang and Tang. I feel sad even when I speak, restless, and even if I know that I am with Zhong Linshan, I can’t respond. I don’t understand why I always hesitate to treat my feelings, I don’t understand why I am tolerant of everything, but I often feel that I still like it, and I often feel that it is just suffering sickly conceived.”

“One of the ways that actors want to subvert their previous image and let the audience re-understand themselves is to play the role of a woman. After a long time, I know that I can’t wait to come back on my own initiative, so I do everything possible to thread the needle, but I can only look at the position through its relationship. Because the locator of the ring was getting closer and closer, and finally appeared by my side one day, but I didn’t come to look for it.”

“Zhong Linshan didn’t drink too much at the birthday party. She knew she wasn’t looking for her, but she didn’t want to admit that she wasn’t looking for her. But unfortunately, she could only lure her upstairs through Li Scarlett.”

“Those words, true and false, are mostly spoken to listeners. After waiting for more than 800 days, I don’t want to lose even a hug easily.”

“Probably because of the strong anxiety that made me worry about gains and losses, I couldn’t imagine leaving my side again, and I couldn’t imagine turning back no matter how hard I tried to stay, so even though I promised to start all over that night, I didn’t feel happy at all.”

“Sometimes, the more you are concerned about a certain thing, the less you dare to mention it.”

“I’m ashamed of doing those things to you, that madman, yes, I don’t want to ask for forgiveness, and I don’t want to continue this pathologically tired and repeated relationship, so whether it’s engagement or marriage, it doesn’t matter to me.”

“It’s been almost four years. Whether it’s Zhong Linshan’s birthday or Christmas a few days ago, I’ve waited anxiously and anxiously. I thought I could finally be relieved this time, but at the end of the matter, I fell into a back and forth again.”

“Do you know? Lin Mingling looked for him before this engagement ceremony.”

“She said she would come, but it must be after the wedding, and then she told me every reason why she would come or not.”

“She’s scary, but I still want to wait until Gu Xizhi, who loves and envies her, will give her a brave back to cherish.”

“But in the end, she was right. The relationship between the two of us is so fragile and vulnerable. Looking back, it looks like a joke. This is the biggest failure, and it will be the biggest regret.”

“That’s fine, at least let me know that giving up is the happiest way out for us.”

“Perhaps from the first time I saw it, this relationship was wrong and distorted. I liked it for so long, chased it for so long, waited for so long, and now, I am finally willing to end this failed mistake.”

The sound of the piano had already stopped, Qu Xizhi’s straight back gradually relaxed, and the sound was so soft that it could no longer be heard.

“Gu Xizhi, you guys…”

Sunshine penetrates the flower branches, and the white skirt is full of shadows, and the plum petals on the branches bloom vigorously in the wind. The vitality is too vigorous, and the life that is said to wither quickly.

Gu Xizhi watched the blurry shadow gradually fall down, as if he was extremely frightened, his whole body trembled, and he didn’t even dare to take half a step forward.

In the distance, such as Daiqing Mountain, it is shrouded in mist, and the water mist rises suddenly, and the warm smoke curls up, circling and covering.

That vague shadow fell into the petals, its brows were tightly closed, and its expression was peaceful.

The thin flower shadow fell on her fair face, reflecting the bright and colorful colors, but the damp eyelashes made her more quiet and quiet.

She has long eyebrows like a moon, and her dazzling red lips make her complexion almost glamorous.

She is still so beautiful.