Vol 2 Chapter 49 Be good, be good!

When the word “elope” was repeatedly mentioned in Jian Wei’s mouth, my perception was pulled into the vortex of memories again, and I remembered every detail of Jian Wei’s life when she followed me to Suzhou desperately, even though it was already a period of time. The old past, but those expressions of her being satisfied, sad, happy, and crying in this past, still ignited my emotions in an instant, making it impossible for me to go back to the house to face her again. …..

I finally heard Mo Zishi respond to her: “I said that elopement is just to show my determination to you. Objectively, it does not exist. If you can bravely face it with me, we will never get things to come to an end.” Elopement is so bad!”

Jian Wei’s tone became more and more painful, and she kept repeating the word “elope”. Mo Zishi ordered after experience, and realized that these two words touched the deepest secret in Jian Wei’s heart, and he again Softly comforting Jian Wei, she said it was a slip of the tongue and let her calm down.

In order not to irritate Jian Wei further, Mo Zishi left the room, leaving only Yan Yan and Qin Yan to comfort Jian Wei, and as the man who eloped with her back then, I didn’t have the guts to face her, so I Standing like this outside this deserted house, I feel a little lost!

Mo Zishi came to my side, he asked me for a cigarette, and he held it between his fingers, as if using a borrowed flame, lit it hastily, took a hasty puff, and then, in this matter that he was not good at Coughing violently, I also lit a cigarette, stretched out the smoke from my mouth like a textbook, then merged with the light of a lamp, and then dissipated…

The room finally became quiet, and after a long time, I heard Jian Wei’s mournful voice again: “Yan Yan, tell me why I always feel that I have experienced some things, but I can’t remember anything. This feeling seems to hollow out my whole being, I really can’t stand it anymore!”

   “Weiwei, if you can’t remember it, don’t force yourself to think about it. It’s a relief to forget some things. You really don’t want to embarrass yourself like this anymore! I beg you, okay?”

The room was so quiet that it was almost suffocating. I saw Jian Wei’s almost collapsed expression through the window, and she finally whispered to Yan Yan: “You guys go back first, I’m tired, I want to be alone Be quiet.”

  …….

This should have been a pleasant night, but because of Mo Zishi’s unexpected arrival, it became a bit heavy, but this is definitely not Mo Zishi’s unilateral responsibility, but the historical issues left by me and Jian Wei, which have affected the innocent him If there was such a possibility, he would have had the opportunity to know Jian Wei when Jian Wei and I broke up, and many things would not be as regrettable and difficult to understand as they are now.

Leaving the nursing home, I drove Mo Zishi to a nearby hotel. On the way we inevitably chatted with Jian Wei. He smiled bitterly and said, “Zhaoyang, do you think fate is a wonderful thing? ?… At the beginning, I just promised Xiao Cai to do my best to heal Jian Wei, but now it has become a fateful entanglement. The most incredible thing is: you are her first love boyfriend who has always existed in her subconscious, But we still have to talk about her past and the life she might experience in the future in this way!”

  “Many things that happen in life are indeed beyond our control, so we often use absurd and bizarre to describe this world.”

  Mo Zishi remained silent……

I slowed down the speed of the car, and asked him again: “I have a general understanding of your love view, because you have talked to me before, so now I am very curious, you can have countless women to choose, why did you let you in the end?” But it’s Jian Wei, a woman whose life is full of flaws, who is excited?”

Mo Zishi looked at me, and asked with a reasonable expression: “Then tell me, Xiao Cai has countless golden men to choose from, but why does she follow you so hard? She has done so much for you , has paid so much, even disregarding his own life, and has no complaints or regrets! Excuse me, what is the reason for this?”

   “What do you mean by disregarding your own life?”

Mo Zishi was in a trance, and replied: “I’m just exaggerating to describe it this way, what I want to express is: love is not something that needs reasons and truth, sometimes it happens in that inadvertent moment, and Many men and women have tied their lives together because of this moment, do you understand?”

“I know, the reason I doubt it is because I am worried that you have unreliable feelings for Jian Wei just on a whim! She has almost nothing now, only the face that can make all men’s hearts move, if you just covet her Beautiful, then you are a dangerous man to her…this is my concern!”

“I don’t want to explain, because this is not something that can be explained… But I must admit that the relationship between me and Jian Wei is not strong enough. What I am most worried about is her memory problem. If one day she recovers Is it fair for me, Mo Zishi, to let go of the unforgettable feelings I have for you? At that time, what should I do?…For me, the resistance of the family can be overcome Yes, but I don’t have the confidence to deal with it!…Can you understand my concerns?”

  I was silent for a long time before I replied: “I understand, that’s why you didn’t take her to the United States before, but she mistakenly thought that she was not good enough for you, which caused you a lot of pressure from the family!”

“It can be said…Why can she remember many things in the past, but there is no signal from you at all in her brain?…From the perspective of brain science, this is exactly a kind of Extremely unable to let go, that’s why I took advantage of this accident to activate the brain’s protection mechanism and selectively forget about you!”

  I overturned the five-flavor bottle in my heart, but I was speechless.

Mo Zishi sighed softly, and said: “I don’t want to worry so much now…who made me like her so much!…I want to take her to the United States Life, isn’t that what her parents hope for?”

   “I don’t deny that it was a good ending for her…”

  Mo Zishi continued what I hadn’t finished speaking, and said, “But now, she is no longer willing to give me this chance again!”

   “Wait patiently… Time will definitely give you the answer!…”

   “Yes, there will be answers, good or bad!”

  …

Back in the old house, I couldn’t sleep, so I wiped the coffee table that Mi Cai used to like to work on over and over again, and then looked at the almost transparent glass surface, lost my mind for a long time, and didn’t come back until the phone rang. god…

  I answered the phone, and Le Yao’s familiar voice came from inside: “Zhaoyang, are you free now? Go to the movies with me.”

   “Are you in Suzhou?”

   “Well, I participated in the recording of a variety show in Shanghai this afternoon, and went back to Suzhou tonight to have dinner with Robben Xiaowu and the others.”

“Oh.”

   Le Yao’s tone was a little impatient, and she said again: “Don’t ask me these irrelevant things, and quickly answer whether I am free.”

   “You have to explain what movie to watch first, I don’t like urban emotional types!”

“So, you are free…you are waiting at the gate of your community, I will drive to pick you up now, and I will be there in about a quarter of an hour.” After saying this, Le Yao hung up the phone in a hurry , This made me helpless again, God knows where her desire to watch movies came from in the middle of the winter night.

It was really cold late at night, so I put on a thick down jacket, tied a scarf and stood by the platform opposite the community waiting for her. After a while, a very rare pink Land Rover drove towards me Come, and then I saw Le Yao in the car, she seemed to have turned into a pink girl this night, even the scarf and knitted hat were pink.

She gestured for me to get in the car through the car window, and I immediately opened the co-pilot’s door and sat in, and asked very puzzled: “Are we going to the cinema?…Your movie has just been released recently. It has soared so high, if it is recognized by enthusiastic audiences in the movie theater, it will be a big trouble, and I will not care about you at that time, and I will run away without any loyalty!”

   “Don’t talk, you will know later.”

  …

Le Yao drove the car towards the edge of the city, the feeling of emptiness made me feel uncomfortable, and finally I couldn’t hold back and said to her: “This place is a bit creepy, can there still be a movie theater?… ..can we stop making it look like a thriller, I’ve been having a bad heart lately, really!”

   “Don’t be hypocritical, don’t complain, please be a **** man!”

When Le Yao finished speaking, a lonely railway track appeared in our sight after she turned a sharp bend. After she drove forward for a while, she finally stopped the car, and I once again I felt uncomfortable for a while because of this uninhabited emptiness, until I saw the abandoned white wall diagonally opposite, I felt that there might be someone who had built it here, but there were only railway tracks and this abandoned wall, Not even a little man-made garbage and planted flowers and trees can be seen.

Le Yao glanced at the angle between the car and the wall, she got into the car again, dialed directions twice, the rear of the car was facing the white wall, and then she opened the trunk door, and finally After getting off the car, I looked at her in a daze, not knowing what kind of medicine she was selling in this gourd!

At this time, a blue-purple light in the trunk was projected on the somewhat abrupt and lonely wall, and then I saw the movie invested by Le Yao again. It turned out that there was a projector in the trunk. There are two small speakers. When the picture and sound are received by the senses together, the whole world seems to be completely occupied by me and Le Yao! I never thought that there would be only Le Yao, a car, a railroad track, a wall, and a movie that I had already seen in my world.

   Le Yao pulled me to sit next to the projector and speakers in the trunk, and I said to her: “Why bother watching movies in this way, and I’ve already seen it once!”

   Le Yao stared at me with tears in her eyes… She seemed to know that I didn’t pay much attention to watching this movie before.

Indeed, on the day the movie was released, after I entered the movie theater with the company’s top management, I kept chatting with Chen Jingming about the company’s affairs, and then fell asleep in exhaustion. When I woke up, I realized that I hadn’t even been able to see the last scene of my cameo in this movie.

At this time, this scene made it impossible for me not to focus. Twenty minutes later, I finally took this movie into my heart. Smoke a cigarette, watch the camera densely concentrated on the bar and the wet street, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, it makes me feel like I am living in this movie, because I have experienced too many scenes….. .I can’t breathe!

It wasn’t until the heroine packed her bags, left the crowded and fast-paced city, and saw the first wide sea, that I felt relieved, and my palms already felt wet… .

At the end of the movie, the heroine dies in a shipwreck while pregnant with the hero’s child and sleeps forever in the sea. Her wealthy father bought her a favorite island and put her tombstone on it. on that small island…

It wasn’t until the third year after the heroine’s death that the hero learned the truth. However, because of guilt, he didn’t dare to go to the small island where the heroine sleeps. He only dared to stand on the opposite island and watch from afar. There is the back view of my cameo, and the appearance of this back view is not the last shot of the whole movie. I saw a translucent picture with a blue sailboat in it, and only one stop on the sailboat sea-birds, and the wind that gently blows the sails…

   “The ends of the earth are floating, floating into wounds, where is my hometown tonight, I once had a home, called self-talk, I once had a room, filled with her sadness…”

The song “The End of the World” written by Robben became the ending song of this movie, singing countless sorrows and parting… Finally, in Robben’s singing full of vicissitudes , I felt that I had been **** out of internal injuries, I swallowed in pain, and held back the tears that were about to fall.

At the end of the movie, there was only some scattered moonlight left around. Le Yao’s hair was blown by a gust of cold wind. She pinned it behind her ear skillfully, and said to me softly: “In the movie, I died for love, but never I lived in that man’s heart… What about reality? Ha ha… I live a prosperous life, but in that man’s heart, it’s just a shooting star that shines for a few seconds. …But what can this explain?……It means that life is life, and art is art, so we all continue to compromise in life and pursue those alternative pleasures caused by sadness in art! ”

   “I agree with you, because we are all like this.”

“Hehe…!” Le Yao smiled, smiled…she finally stopped laughing, she cried…after crying, she smiled and said to me: “Zhaoyang , I have already decided to have a child with Jinfei…we must have a child, although it has not been created yet, but Jinfei’s parents and my father are waiting for the birth of this child!”

“Um……”

“Remember, the woman who is by your side at this moment will no longer have that island in her heart, nor will there be an extended railroad track… I want to thank you for creating a dream for me and Jinfei in the game. There is a place called Xiaoyao Pool and Jinfei Valley, which will become the place I most desire…”

“Um……”

   “Also remember: keep the island and the tombstone I left behind in your heart, even if it’s just an inconspicuous place, but you must remember to put it.”

“Um……”

Le Yao held my face in both hands, with tears in his eyes, but said with a smile: “Then I’ll go first, you can go back by yourself…Although the road is a bit off, it’s a bit difficult, but you will definitely go back In that old house, because you have an indelible belief in your heart.”

“Yes.”

   “Be good! Be good!…I’m leaving… Be good!”