Vol 2 Chapter 71 square circle

The dense dark clouds and rain seem to sing a lament in this city. The blood flowing from Fangyuan’s body, like scattered petals, is dissolved by the rain little by little. The world in my eyes is only left with the two extreme colors of blood red and gray …I was so heavy that I could hardly breathe, my body was stiff, and I looked at the twitching Fangyuan, his shoes had fallen off, the sewage stained his face, and the white socks…this Or the guy who drank with me in college and lent me money from his job to play in a band?

  Why can’t I see his face and hear his breathing?

Why?

  Mi Lan was dragged out of the car by the security guards in the office building and controlled her. She didn’t fight, her face was ashen, as if she had killed Fang Yuan, and everything in this world had nothing to do with her…

Yan Yan held Fang Yuan’s hand tightly, but she was at a loss in the pain of being about to collapse. She could no longer cry, and subconsciously held Fang Yuan’s hand tighter and tighter… Gradually, we all heard the sound from afar. The sound of an ambulance coming…

   But what they brought was the announcement of death. Fangyuan had no heartbeat, and he bid farewell to this world before leaving a single word… and the city was so silent!

   In my world, there is only one tear of confession and unfinished beer left by him… I really want to forgive him!

The soulless body was carried into the ambulance by the hospital staff. Mi Lan, who had been silent all this time, finally became crazy. She screamed: “Why? Why, I have decided to forgive you, and you still have to fight with that bitch. Women together?…Why!…Fang Yuan, you demon, you demon who plays with emotions…I can no longer have children, why are you treating me… …I don’t feel any guilt at all, and I still want to be with that bitch…”

The sound of the police siren means that everything is approaching the final result. Mi Lan was handcuffed and pushed into the police car… My heart is hurting, how should I tell the world , Tell her, what Fang Yuan said to me twenty minutes ago, how should I tell the world, tell her that Yan Yan and Fang Yuan are only together because of a coincidence?

   If this scene hadn’t happened, Yan Yan and Fang Yuan would have parted ways here, and each would face their own families…

   Mi Lan is too impulsive!

But there is a reason for impulsiveness, because her character is inherently flawed, and she is also a victim. She has lost the ability to think in the bad news of her inability to conceive. She pinned all her hopes for the rest of her life on Fang Yuan, but Seeing that coincidental scene, Yan Yan was a nightmare she couldn’t get rid of all the time, so she collapsed and lost control…

I finally sat on the ground weakly, lowered my head and let the rain wash my body… I was in this lingering shadow, wondering if the rest of the light was all the things that happened in this world, Is it all based on cause and effect? And no one can escape the cycle of good and evil? Sooner or later, in different ways!

  …

This evening, Qin Yan and I picked up Yan Yan, who cooperated with the investigation, at the Public Security Bureau. She was in a state of despair, but she refused to be with us. She wanted to be alone… I knew where she wanted to go, so I Let Qin Yan rest assured that he will take good care of her.

Qin Yan may understand Yan Yan’s mood better than anyone else at the moment, he chose to leave silently, leaving the most space for Yan Yan, I finally endured the pain like a knife, and said softly to Yan Yan : “Come with me, I want to go there too…”

  …

  I drove to the university alma mater that carried our countless emotions.

Today is the last weekend before the winter vacation, so the streets on both sides are full of students who are restless in their youth. We used to be like them, afraid of the final exam, but contradictory thinking that getting a diploma is enough Fix the whole world…..

These familiar scenes immediately made my eyes red. I leaned back on the seat and lit a cigarette for myself. Yan Yan next to me looked at everything in the car window in a daze. Her tears never stopped. I know: being here, she will be more than I think!

After half a cigarette was smoked, cheers of “It’s snowing” came from the car window, and the whole campus suddenly became a sea of ​​joy… I looked back blankly, only to find that our car had been blocked one after another. The students who came were overwhelmed, and the sky really had the first snow of the year.

  I opened the car door and stood in the middle of this group of students. I saw some past events on their youthful faces. In this past event, there was a similar snowfall, and Fangyuan and I.

It was a night when my bandmates and I were walking to school after a show, and we were frustrated because it cost a lot of money to rent the venue, but the show didn’t make any money. Let’s have the intention of breaking up the band…

The snow that night was heavier than it is now. In the snow, Fang Yuan caught up with us panting on a bicycle. Without saying anything, he took off his gloves and took out 1,000 yuan from his pocket. gave me.

  I knew that the money was earned by him doing temporary jobs outside the school, and it was not easy to come by, so I didn’t reach out to take it.

He smiled and stuffed the money into my pocket, patted my shoulder with frostbitten hands, and said: “Take this money and ask the brothers in the band to have a good meal, and then cheer up and continue working.” …I have persisted until this time, don’t even think about giving up…”

“I……”

Fangyuan didn’t give me a chance to refuse the money, he put on his gloves and rode away, but after riding a few meters, he turned his head and said to me as if thinking of something: “By the way, Zhaoyang, these days I’ve sorted out all the notes for you and put them in your locker, and the final exam is coming soon, you should pay close attention to it, don’t fail so many subjects like last semester…!”

“understood.”

   “Well, the world is very realistic and cruel. You have to persevere in your dreams and studies… My buddy is gone, call me if you don’t have enough money!”

   “No need, if you do this, how can you make a buddy pay back these favors in the future?”

“There is no need to say anything about the relationship between us. When your band becomes famous, remember to sing “seasons in the sun” for your buddies at the concert. This song is good. I have been listening to it recently… …”

That night, the back view of him riding away was deeply engraved in my heart. Later, I sang this song for him at a school celebration party. It turns out that he still remembers it all the time, so I hope to have the opportunity Listen again!

   Unfortunately, there is no chance…

I looked up and could no longer hold back the tears in my eyes. I cried until my body trembled and everyone around me came to comfort me, but I couldn’t stop until I cried until my lungs hurt, my heart hurt, and I knelt down on the ground and couldn’t help myself. Straighten up again…

  He’s not a bad guy, at least he wasn’t a bad guy!

  …

In the school cafeteria, Yan Yan and I had the most simple dinner of the year. There was only a plate of vegetarian dishes, a bowl of porridge and a few steamed buns in front of us… I endured the pain, After eating these, Yan Yan never stopped crying. In this campus, she and Fang Yuan will only have more memories than me. They have sat in the cafeteria like this countless times, eating the most simple dinner, Talking about the thoughts of boys and girls.

This night, Yan Yan and I didn’t go back. We sat all night in the all-night study room opened before the exam. We didn’t say anything, we didn’t do anything, we just listened to the sound of flipping books and taking notes… …I finally know that Yan Yan has never let go of Fangyuan in her heart, but she can’t say anything, can’t do anything, because she needs the life in front of her more than this feeling that she can’t let go… ….

   (Recommend to listen to this song “seasons in the sun”)