season finale

Leaving the cemetery, I walked on the straight road empty-handed. The road became wider and wider, matching the blue sky and white clouds above my head. I stopped and looked up at the distant city. What I felt was The scars left on us by the time that cannot go back, and persistence and giving up are just a thought, but whether persistence or giving up can open a window for our lives, I still haven’t figured it out… .In these years, what I have seen is only the collision of countless emotions in the troubles of the world, and we can only chase the sometimes real, sometimes illusory freedom with the eyes of the prisoner…

Maybe it’s because I don’t have any burden on my body anymore. I used my legs to walk among the cities that have been depressing me for many years. I just walked to the moat… Today, this place has been Transformed into a leisure gathering place similar to the riverside square, every time I see countless smiling faces here asking for happiness, I understand: this place does not belong to me and Jian Wei anymore, the labels we put here have been ruthlessly torn by the years In the end, there is only a trace of nostalgia left, which falls on the river and drifts towards the end of the city with the wind…

In the noise of the crowd, I turned over and sat on the guardrail by the river. Here, I don’t want much. I just want to sit quietly for a while, then light a cigarette and think about something… ..

I really lit a cigarette, but found that there were not too many things that I could take out to miss at this moment. It was not until a dead leaf fell into the river silently that my memory was opened. …..

At this position, a piece of lipstick once slipped from Jian Wei’s hands. At that moment, her expression seemed to be so melancholy that she had lost the whole world, but I only realized it today after more than two years: 6 years ago She used this lipstick to rewrite the waiting on the car window that I will never forget in my life…

wait?

  I waited, but there was no result after all… In the end, it just made a very hurtful stroke in the lives of both of us!

   Even so, I will never forget that when I saw her for the first time, she was wearing a white T-shirt, which amazed me all summer……

  I took a deep puff of the cigarette, but it was stuck in my mouth, and I couldn’t bear to spit it out… because I was afraid of seeing the original starting point in those pervasive smoke!

“Jian Wei, we have no future, just like the water in the moat in front of us. Although we have blended together regardless of each other, as the wind direction changes, we have already flowed in two directions. Now, I’ve docked, how about you?…”

   “You must be working hard too, aren’t you?”

I finally exhaled the smoke trapped in my mouth, but what I saw was not the original starting point. I seemed to see Jian Wei’s happiness in the future life. She will not be worse than Yan Yan, a good friend. One day, She will also become the most beautiful mother in the world, holding her beloved child and smiling in the bright sunshine!

  …….

Walking has become something I can’t stop today, so I went all the way north again, and came to the railway track that Le Yao often regarded as sustenance, and dusk came quietly when I stopped, Under the scattered afterglow, I seem to see a lonely figure, she caresses her hair, looking at the farthest stretch of the railway track…

  In the sound of the friction between the train and the rails, I gradually remembered something she said to me…

  She said: We want to be masters of life…

  She said: There is an isolated island in her heart, and she will wait for the man who comes with sail on this isolated island.

  She said: All the pain of people is just because they take themselves too seriously and want to satisfy those illusory desires in their hearts, such as love. Once it is not what you imagined, it will be painful!

  She also said: A seed has been planted in my heart in this life. If it is nourished by rain, I must remember to blossom and bear fruit…

“Le Yao, you really understand the principles of life better than all of us, but for a long time, you have been unwilling to take these principles to become a master in life…Actually, I have always known What are you thinking, but you don’t understand why you think so, come to think of it, this is the biggest regret when we get along!…But in my heart, I will never forget that period of our pain The years of interpenetration… During those years, you scribbled graffiti in my life, and I was tired of it, but when I looked back at your graffiti work, I realized that it was The most beautiful scroll in my life….”

“Le Yao, we all have families, and the opportunities to get along with each other are getting less and less, but I’m afraid there will be no less thoughts in my heart… With these thoughts, I really want to see, You, a playful, trouble-loving, wind-like woman, what will you become after realizing the responsibilities of the family?…Actually, the responsibilities of the family are also a railroad track, which must be tightly fitted and symmetrically matched. Only by supporting the family can the train sail smoothly to the platform that represents the completion of the journey… Do you agree with this?”

  …

  Under the setting sun, two trains are going in opposite directions, as if they are chasing the most distant place with some memories in my life…

   And it’s time for me to leave Suzhou again, and then wait in my hometown for the woman who is indispensable in my life and the surprise she will bring me!

  …

On the afternoon of New Year’s Eve, I was sitting in the image cafe I created myself, drinking coffee and reading the latest issue of financial magazines, as I did two years ago. On this special day, the coffee shop is not open to the public , I just want to wait quietly…

Putting down the magazine in my hand, I squinted at the blue sky and white clouds outside the coffee shop, opened a window and stretched out my hand outside, the dazzling sunlight did not have the severe cold in winter, under such a good weather, I I couldn’t help but put a smile on my face, and untied the necklace with the butterfly pendant that Mi Cai once gave me from the neckline. aperture……

  In the distance, a figure gently walked towards the coffee shop under the blowing of the breeze. My heart, which had been calm for an afternoon, began to beat violently…

She was getting closer and closer to me, I saw her clearly, and there was a child in her hand with a hat with bear ears. I felt kind inexplicably, because there were too many traces of me on the child’s brows , but the skin and lips have inherited Mi Cai. I have never seen such a beautiful and lovely child, and I can’t help but burst into tears… I know, this is my child, and I finally understand why Mi Cai is in Last year disappeared for so long…

  Under the setting sun, Mi Cai stood outside the glass window. She picked up the chestnut she bought in her hand, and said dotingly to the child in her arms: “So, pass the chestnuts in Mommy’s hand to Dad…”

Tears have made me unable to see clearly. The beauty of the world in front of me is so heartbreaking… It turns out that our child’s name must be named by Mi Cai. Only she has such a mood to name her child called the so-called.

The child can’t speak yet, let alone pick up a chestnut. He just looked at me and smiled, then leaned on Mi Cai’s shoulder, stroking the hair around Mi Cai’s ear with his small hands, Seems like that’s what he enjoys the most…

  A gentle wind brought the breath of rice color and children, and fell through the window into my open neckline. I knew that I was not dreaming…

In this half of my life, I have been depressed, painful, hurt by love, and betrayed by my brothers, but all of these have been melted in the afternoon sun. I am willing to forgive all the injustice and injustice in this world for the one I love in front of me. dark wound…

  At this moment, I seem to see a kind of purity, which floats in front of the city, merges with the blue sky and white clouds in a gesture of return, and then falls on the ground as the sun disperses, becoming a lingering love……

I walked out of the coffee shop with firm steps. I came to their mother and son. Mi Cai handed the book to me. I hugged him so carefully. He didn’t cry because he had never seen me before. And Mi Cai kept holding his little hand, encouraging him to recognize my hug… My heart was melted like this, and I choked up and said to Mi Cai: “Four years ago, you were my tenant, four years ago Years later, you will be my wife…the fate is really mysterious!”

   “Well, two years ago you were the man I loved deeply, and two years later you were the father of the child… We should all be grateful for fate, thank you for the old house that allowed us to meet in fate!”

I nodded, and gently hugged Mi Cai into my arms, and the sound of firecrackers representing the arrival of New Year’s Eve had already been heard in the distance. The road paved with gravel is heading home… Our figures are getting longer and longer under the street lights that have just been turned on, but we have left harmony along the way…And four years ago The scene of Mi Cai and I getting acquainted on a rainy night is embedded in the soft night, like a long movie rendered by fireworks, describing the feelings of youth and the indelible hope in life!

  …

  My name is Zhaoyang, this is my story, the end may also be a beginning……

  End of the book

  After a year and a half of creation, it is finally finished. I know this is not a perfect work, but I have tried my best, and my ability can only write to this level. Thank you for your support all the way.

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