Epilogue 2 Still Alive

At the other end of the ancient town, Le Yao finally closed the script in her hand. She combed her hair, put on a mask that could conceal herself, left the place where she had just sat, followed the crowd, and walked on the In the night full of temptation, but she can’t feel how her emotions exist. These years of work have overdrawn her too much. Sometimes she feels that finding a way of life that suits her is the most important thing in this world. The most difficult thing in the world, in the end, I can only have the ability to treat pain as happiness in helplessness!

Just like that, she came to the end of a road extending along the river. She didn’t care about the secular stains at all, so she just sat casually on the steps trampled by countless people by the river, looking at some people who hadn’t The leaves that have fallen in autumn are floating on the river.

On the steps on the other side of the river, another woman sat down so casually, it seemed that they were all soaked in the casualness of that man, so that she would often ignore the prudishness in the real world, and when she wanted to sit down , you will not care how many stains there are on the ground, and when you want to stand up, you will not be afraid of the untouchable sky above your head.

  In the gap between the passing ships, they met each other. Although they were surprised by each other, they didn’t think it was a coincidence.

Even if it was Jian Wei, Le Yao was still used to taking the initiative. She made a gesture to ask Jian Wei to wait a while, and bought two bottles of rice wine in a shop near the river, and then walked across a stone bridge to Jian Wei. Beside Wei, the two faced each other in silence, but neither of them could break the silence, because they could see what the other was thinking, but thinking about it was a taboo in their lives that could not be discussed. As a result, the whole world seemed to turn into abstract and messy lines shaking, and no one could grasp the point.

  Finally, Le Yao raised the rice wine in Jian Wei’s hand and said, “Would you like some drink?”

Jian Wei nodded, Le Yao unscrewed the bottle cap and handed it to her, and unscrewed the other bottle himself, there was no collision of toasts, only two hearty sips, and then the body became warm, and the valve of memory also Being washed away, I took out those vague memories and thought about it over and over again.

They should be thankful that the place they are in at this moment is sufficiently hidden, otherwise two beautiful and conspicuous women, holding a wine bottle like a man, will definitely be violated by countless eyes who want to find out. I used alcohol to vent my emotions.

   Soon, they drank half a bottle of wine, and Jian Wei spoke to Le Yao. She asked, “Why did you come here?”

“I’m going to shoot a few scenes here for my new play… What about you, why are you here? Sometimes when I think of you, I feel as if I’ve evaporated out of this world. I haven’t thought about it Can see you again… Uh, it should be said that everyone who knows you will never think about seeing you again. If I remember correctly, we haven’t seen each other for almost two years face to face!”

  Jian Wei took another sip of the wine bottle, she wanted to avoid Le Yao’s question…She didn’t have a legitimate reason to come to this ancient town like Le Yao.

Le Yao saw her emotions, and she shrugged regretfully for her reluctance to open her heart, and took a sip from the wine bottle, then watched intently the river under her feet against the light, making her People are dangling with no sense of security.

  Jian Wei finally changed the subject and asked, “How have you been these few years?”

   “Me?” Le Yao was a little dazed, and then replied: “It’s pretty good, but I like to pretend to be dead a few times when I’m asleep!”

  Jian Wei looked at her with some confusion, it seemed that the woman in front of her would always say some neurotic words, just like her personality.

Le Yao smiled “haha”, looked at Jian Wei and replied, “I’m just kidding… It’s just that sometimes I have changed a lot of ways of life, and there is no way to solve the contradictions in life, which really makes people feel Very frustrating!”

  Jian Wei thought about it for a while, and said with sympathy: “Same!”

After a simple exchange, they fell into a long silence, and then inevitably talked about the topic that had troubled them for the first half of their lives. Le Yao said: “Last year Zhaoyang and Mi Cai got married, and the wedding was very low-key. Xuzhou did it.”

  Although she has thought about this scene countless times, Jian Wei still felt a throbbing pain in her heart, and replied with a strong smile, “Really?…”

Le Yao nodded subconsciously, and said: “I’m really curious, why did you break up with Zhaoyang at that time?…I saw him in pain for so long with my own eyes! At that time, I also thought it was you who changed his mind. You’ve made up your mind, but it doesn’t look like this now, you have never given up on that man who is sometimes unclear and sometimes so persistent!”

  Jian Wei raised her head, her expression was dull for a long time, and then she replied in a low voice: “I did something wrong!”

   “If you are willing to speak out, no matter what you did wrong, he will definitely forgive you.”

   “But I can’t forgive myself…!”

   “You are really a woman who is more contradictory than us. Since you can’t forgive yourself, you shouldn’t go back to China and complicate many things that should have been simple!”

   Jian Wei sighed softly, and said for the first time in several years: “I was wrong!”

Le Yao raised the wine bottle, raised her head and drank the rest of the wine, and replied with lighter words than Jian Wei: “But I can understand you…Because of your mood, I have experienced it countless times. But… I can’t let go of these three words, tossing them over and over in our minds!”

Jian Wei shook her head and smiled bitterly, actually seeing through the essence of this matter, she is not as heart-piercing as before, but regret is not inevitable, so just like what Le Yao said, she can only pretend to be in her sleep. Died several times, after waking up, in the anguish of being alive, continue to face the burning pain of the boiled world!

It was as if a gust of wind had blown from the farthest sky, blowing away some dust and bustle. The ancient town submerged in the night finally became quieter, and the two women who met by chance but whose fates were implicated were also gone. After being silent for a long time, they resolved the same distress in different ways…then they continued to be trapped in the alley of life by different routes at the moment of leaving, unable to find the exit!

The wind blew another burst of depression when the lights were about to go out, and also a river cleaning boat without awning, which stopped beside Le Yao and Jian Wei. They thought in surprise: “Who is on the boat Wrinkles seem to be engraved on the face of the old man who has something to say to himself…

  The old man really said to them: “You two girls, please make way for my wife.”

Jian Wei and Le Yao turned their heads subconsciously, and an old lady who looked a bit sick was standing behind them, holding an old heat preservation box in her hand, it turned out that she was going to use these steps, Get on the old man’s boat.

Jian Wei and Le Yao each turned sideways to give the old lady a space to pass. The old lady was about to board the boat, but was stopped by the old man. He complained full of worry in his words: “Didn’t I tell you not to give me a ride?” Have you eaten yet?…The riverside is very humid, you just finished chemotherapy, how can you eat your bones!”

   “As long as I live, I will give you a day.” The old lady said and wanted to get on the old man’s cleaning boat.

The old man was unwilling to let her go up, and after letting her leave the incubator, he urged her to leave quickly. The old woman babbled a few more words, and then reluctantly left… The old man looked at her back for a while. Complained: “This old woman was stubborn when she was young, but she is still so stubborn when she is old!”

But when the old woman’s back completely disappeared by the river bank, the corners of her eyes were red, and she wiped away the long-suppressed tears with her rough hands. Thinking about it: he wanted the old woman to just keep delivering meals to him, but Like sunrise and sunset, life will be harvested after all, and the days when you can deliver meals will always come to an end, so being alive has become the greatest hope in the lives of the two old people…

  Alive?

  Alive!

Jian Wei and Le Yao seemed to see a kind of great love, but they were silent. After comparing, they found out how extravagant they were living. It is the most precious and worth cherishing…and love is only a small love after all, so it is always full of grievances, unwillingness, expectations, boredom, and never has a fixed form…

  Le Yao finally said to Jian Wei: “Hehe, if Zhaoyang is the old man who punted the boat, the corresponding old woman would only be Mi Cai, not us, right? Jian Wei!”

   “Maybe…” After thinking for a while, Jian Wei said again: “It’s not maybe, it’s definitely… They should look like this!”

  ”So what we should cherish is the man who married us, or is about to marry us, and all the nostalgia, after all, are only kind…just kindness!”

   “Yes, how can we waste the luck of being alive……!”

Le Yao nodded, indicating to Jian Wei to drink the rest of the wine in the bottle, and to resist the swaying teasing of the night… If they want to, they will see the place at their feet in the morning after five hours. To the ancient town, the most beautiful sunrise……