Chapter 100 dazed

The war was approaching, and it was only a day before the expedition, Guo Qu took advantage of the retreat of all the ministers, left alone, in the Qianqiu Long Live Hall, after swaying the palace servants, Fang cupped his hands: “Your Majesty, Liu An, who fled from Chang’an, is now gone. After finding the trail, he was wandering in the land of Shuofang, because he abandoned most of his men and horses, and only attracted less than a hundred people, hiding in the mountains and fields, and it was difficult to search for a while.”

Liu Yu frowned, nodded and said, “Continue to order people to intercept him. You can’t leave any fish that slip through the net. He has an old illness and has been traveling around for a long time. Naturally, he is weak.

After Guo Qu nodded in agreement, he talked about the deployment in Luoyang City. Finally, Fang reminded: “Your Majesty, the overall situation is gradually settled. It is time to establish the Queen of the Middle Palace early to stabilize the hearts of courtiers.”

Liu Yu pondered and smiled bitterly to himself, thinking that he had already made up his mind about the canonization of the empress, and he was afraid that the child would still not be willing to reconcile with him.

He had previously named Zhao You as a county marquis, just to make a statement to everyone that the queen’s position was to be given to Ah Shu. It’s just that the decree has not been directly issued recently, but it has caused many courtiers and even big families in various places to have reverie.

Guo Qu’s words are not without reason.

It’s just that little girl, with her former temperament, I’m afraid she doesn’t care about other women beside him at all, right?

But Rao was so stagnant every day, and he had absolutely no idea of ​​indifference to her, the idea of ​​approaching the woman next to him, the position of the middle palace was reserved for her early, and it would never be coveted by others.

Guo Qu looked at Liu Yu, who was in a trance on the seat and had not spoken for a long time. After waiting for a long time, he asked tentatively, “Your Majesty?”

Liu Yu suddenly returned to his senses, rubbed his brows with his knuckles, and said, “Tomorrow I will issue an order. It’s just that she hasn’t fully recovered recently, so don’t have too much cumbersome etiquette.”

Guo Qu was satisfied and left.

“She” in Liu Yuyu’s language is naturally Zhao Ji.

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In the evening, in the Changqiu Palace, Ah Shu hugged the blue sparrow, and then led Po Nu and A Dai, and the four returned from a stroll in the palace garden.

After breastfeeding Qingque and coaxing him to sleep, he and Po Nu and Adai used the feeding together. Fang sent a maid to send the two children back, but the palace servant who was always serving Liu Xiu was holding a Fang Fang. Comes in a positive long wooden box.

When the palace servant was in the palace, he served by the side, and now he smiled and took the wooden box into the house and put it to the queen, saying: “Your majesty sent a maid to bring this thing, and now the maid should be called a queen. .”

After that, he knelt down and bowed in a proper manner, wishing: “May the Queen live forever and live forever.”

Ah Shu raised her eyebrows slightly, said “Get up” first, and then lowered her head to open the wooden box.

I saw clothes neatly arranged in the lacquer box.

The headdresses such as false buns, step shakes, and hairpins, as well as the sacrificial clothes with upper cyan and lower soap, and the silkworm clothes with upper blue and lower twilight, are all queen dresses.

In addition to these, there is also a white jade seal from Hetian mutton fat, with a warm color, golden chi and tiger buttons, four engraved cloud patterns, and a sash. Character.

A Shu held the Fang Yuxi for a long time, until the temperature in the palm of his hand warmed the cool jade, and then put it back in the box, closed it well, and handed it to Que’er to put it aside, and said warmly, “Thank you, Your Majesty.”

The palace servant was still waiting hesitantly, as if he was expecting her to say more, but when he saw the vague confusion in her eyes, he had to bow and retreat.

Que’er watched eagerly, and when the palace servant left, Fang approached and said worriedly, “Your Majesty is really sincere in treating Ashu.”

She looked at Ah Shu staring blankly at the appearance of Chun Yi outside the window, and sighed softly, “Your Majesty was unwilling to tell the truth about King Chenliu before, didn’t he just care and feel sorry for Ah Shu? Why is Ah Shu so stubborn? ”

A Shu’s eyes flashed a bit blank again, and then he looked sideways at the wooden box that contained the queen’s dress and seal, and murmured, “I need to think about it…”

After the palace man returned to the Qianqiu Long Live Palace, he told Ashu’s reaction just now.

Liu Xiu hesitated for a moment, then asked again, “Is there anything else?”

The man in the palace shook his head and said hesitantly, “The queen didn’t say anything more. It’s just that the maid seems to be hesitant and confused.”

Liu Yu frowned and said, “I know.” Then he waved the person back and sat alone in the hall for a long time, until night fell, and finally stepped on the moonlight and went to Changqiu Palace.

When I got to the door, the maid reported: “Your Majesty is down.”

When Ah Shu heard the sound, she put down the paintbrush in her hand, stood up, and bowed to call “Husband”.

Listening to her soft voice, Liu Xiu caught a glimpse of the silk she spread out on the table, where she was drawing a picture of fish playing with lotus leaves, and said, “Have you seen everything I gave you?”

Ah Shu smiled and said, “Yes, thank you husband.”

Liu Xiu only felt unfamiliar, but hearing that she did not call her “Your Majesty”, Fang Jue felt a lot more at ease.

The maids all withdrew, while Qingque was sleeping soundly in her own little bed in the inner room.

The two stood in the hall, speechless for a while.

After a long while, Liu Yu suddenly said: “Tomorrow, I will lead the army to go out and fight against the Huns.”

Ashu stared at him and said, “Qing Que and I are in Luoyang, and I hope that my husband will return with a great victory.”

Liu Xiu was silent for a while, then suddenly said hoarsely: “Last year, when I was alone in Chang’an, I had a dream. In that dream, you never married me, but became a wife of Geng Yun.”

A Shu’s quiet heart suddenly stirred up waves, and suddenly raised his eyes to look at him in amazement, both shocked and at a loss, as if the secret that had been buried in his heart for a long time was suddenly exposed to the eyes of others.

Liu Yu’s gentle and handsome face showed a bit of bitterness that could not be concealed: “You also had that dream, didn’t you? When I came back from Xiayang to see you that day, you said that I dreamed that I would bring you and the mother and son together. If you kill it, you have the same dream, right? Or, earlier, your fear and resistance to me that I had no reason for all came from that dream, right?”

“Yes.”

Ah Shu opened her mouth, only to feel a thousand words in her heart, and finally only said one word.

Liu Yu’s body swayed, and his heart gradually sank. He couldn’t tell whether he was jealous of Geng Yun in the dream, or disappointed with the bleak reality today.

He said sternly: “Then, you persuaded your brother to marry me on your own initiative, and even later, no matter how difficult my situation was, you unreservedly believed that I could succeed. Is it also because of that dream?”

Ah Shu took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and said, “Yes.”

Liu Xiu only felt that his heart was hit hard, and he took two steps back and asked the last one: “So, your previous reliance, obedience, and even intimacy to me were only because you knew that I could protect your family’s well-being, not because of… You like me, don’t you?”

When Ah Shu heard this, there was a bit of daze and confusion in her eyes, and her face as white as jade could not reveal the slightest expression.

She has been haunted by that dream for more than three years, but she has never clearly thought about what kind of emotion she is treating him now.

Seeing her silent appearance, Liu Yu’s emotions that had accumulated in her heart for a long time were quickly shattered by panic and disappointment. He smiled bitterly and said sullenly: “I know, it was just my wishful thinking.”

Since he had this bizarre dream that day, he began to feel uneasy from time to time. When facing her, there was always a vague fear and unreality. For fear of making a mistake, he would find that the smile on her face was nothing but a mirror. That’s why he didn’t dare to tell Liu Xian’s story in advance, and he didn’t dare to tell the truth afterwards.

Looking at it today, it does.

He turned with difficulty, and walked away.

Ah Shu looked at his back, her hands hidden in her sleeves couldn’t help but squeeze tightly until her slender fingernails were deeply embedded in her palms, and a sense of pain came, and she gradually regained her senses.

She had a hunch in her heart that if she watched him leave like this today, she would really teach him to be completely disappointed.

Before she could sort out the confusion in her heart, she quickly caught up, stretched out her arms regardless, and hugged him tightly from behind.

“Husband, don’t go.”

Liu Xiu paused for a while, stood there and didn’t dare to look back. He only looked down at the two little hands tightly wrapped around his waist without saying a word.

Ah Shu’s soft body gradually leaned behind him, and her cheeks were leaning against his back. She closed her eyes and felt his solid and generous figure. After a long time, Fang said, “My husband just asked, I dare not deny it, only the last words, It’s not that I don’t want to answer.”

She said, holding his arms tighter, as if afraid that he would break away like this: “Really, I have never really thought about this, and it is hard to tell right now, what is going on in my heart? .”

“Husband, just please, don’t abandon me at this moment. Give me some time to think clearly, okay?”

Liu Yu looked up at the bright moon hanging high in the sky, covered her clenched hands, opened her slender fingers one by one, turned around, and held her thin shoulders with both hands, saying: “Child, I have already After waiting for a long time, I can’t wait so patiently any longer.”

Looking at her dimming and panic eyes, he sighed softly, feeling unbearable, and stroked the top of her hair.

“I have stood up, and I have worked hard for ten years. I have achieved a great cause, and I have to avenge my brother. Now that I am on the throne, I realize that I want to fulfill my brother’s desire to help the Han family and restore the country’s prestige. There is still a long way to go. Look. In the longevity of people at that time, there are many people who die before they are confused, and those who can live to half a hundred are already rare longevity.”

“The rest of my life is destined to devote most of my energy to government and state affairs. For the remaining time, I would have liked to spend the rest of my life with you, as well as Qingque, as an ordinary family. Limited, Shu, I can’t wait any longer.”

Ah Shu looked up at him in fear, her clear eyes gradually filled with water vapor, condensed into tears, and rolled down her cheeks to the front of her clothes.

She bit her lip, feeling flustered and at a loss, as if she was about to burst out with gushing emotions, but she couldn’t say what it was for a while, so she reached out her hand to wrap her arms around his waist, plunged her head into his arms, and sobbed: ” It’s my fault, husband, let me think about it, okay?”

Liu Yu lowered his head and touched her face with wet tears, his heart throbbing, but he secretly gritted his teeth and endured it, holding her pear blossom and rainy little face, leaned in and kissed, and said solemnly: “I love you, I love you, put you in my heart, I can’t hold others, I just hope that you are like me. Ashu, I will give you some more time until I return from the expedition. If you think clearly, return to me with the same sincerity. For the rest of my life, I will definitely live up to you. If I can’t respond…I can’t have a child…just follow the fate…”

Ah Shu bit her lip, weeping, and nodded again and again.

Liu Yu lowered his head and kissed her forehead again, stretched out his hand ruthlessly, pulled her arms tightly around her waist, wiped away the tears on her face, and instructed: “It’s not early, I have to get up early tomorrow, so I will Don’t disturb you and Qingque, go to Xuande Hall to rest. You should go to bed earlier, don’t worry too much. ”

After all, I didn’t dare to look at her pitiful appearance, and turned away without hesitation.