Chapter 44 heart disease

Chen Junhua’s original name was Chen Tiesheng, which he started by himself. Chen is that after he was accidentally rescued by an aristocrat once, he heard someone call the aristocrat Young Master Chen, and he wrote down the pronunciation.

At that time, I thought that all the noble things were good, and Chen must be very good, so I wrote it down and used it. Tie Sheng was knocked out because he fought with others and grabbed garbage to eat after that.

He felt so sleepy at the time, so he wanted to go to sleep like that, but the noise from a tool-making shop next to him kept making him so noisy that he couldn’t sleep. Then he got up and found a hard piece in the trash can left by others. Had to eat black bread that could kill a man, and then wandered away.

He always remembered that voice, and later heard that it was called the sound of hammering iron. He remembered the pronunciation of the last two words, and combined it with the surname Chen, it was called Chen Tiesheng.

However, he only knew how to pronounce his name at the time. Later, he knew how to write his name after meeting the teacher.

The teacher taught him to write his name, and then asked him how did his name come from? Chen Junhua didn’t want to say it at the time, but the teacher’s tone was so gentle and his expression was so gentle, Chen Junhua said the origin of his name somehow.

The teacher was silent for a while, so silent that Chen Junhua wanted to run away, and then he was held down by the teacher, the teacher said, “Chen Tiesheng, this name is good, tenacious and tenacious, but also reveals a lot of vitality, just like you.

But, iron voice, people can’t keep reminiscing about the past, otherwise you will be trapped by it. Do you like your past? “Chen Junhua shook his head at that time.

The teacher said, “Then let me change your name? The surname will not be changed, it is used to connect your past and future. Tie Sheng represents your past, so let me choose a name that represents your future?

A gentleman is like jade, his noble and elegant. Let’s take the word “king”. You must stick to your noble character no matter what. Only in this way will you finally find someone with noble character as a companion, and get along with someone with inferior character. It’s too hard and painful.

The edge has not been exposed, and the world has been shocked, and Beijing has spent several autumns in hiding. … Take Chinese characters, whether it is viewed individually or as a whole, it is excellent. I hope your talent is amazing, and you can be patient and appropriate, don’t stab others, hurt others and yourself.

Junhua, you can value your past, but you must focus on your future. Only when the future is good will you gradually feel that this experience is nothing more than that. ”

Although Chen Junhua nodded obediently, he actually didn’t take the teacher and the teacher’s words into his eyes. Since elementary school, he was a natural selection for the survival of the fittest, and the unfit were eliminated. What’s the point of making all those bells and whistles? He didn’t even think what happened to his experience.

Chen Junhua thought that he didn’t take the teacher’s words to heart at that time, but just thought that Chen Junhua sounded better than Chen Tiesheng, and the meaning was good, so he changed his name.

Many years later, when he returned to his dream at midnight, he could still remember every word the teacher said at that time, and then he slowly realized that it was the first time he had come into contact with a soft and gentle human being. But still willing to give him the greatest help and kindness.

Even when he was completely unaware, this teacher left an important mark on his life. It was one of the few goodwill and blessings he received when he was young and poor.

To this day, when he named the cub, he still chose the right word subconsciously. Both Qing and Chen Yanai are good names, which entrusted him with infinite blessings and expectations.

Unfortunately, in his youth, kindness and tenderness were always scarce, and malice and **** were the main themes in his childhood life. When he was young and weak, he saw many scenes that ordinary people could not imagine.

In places like slums, everything is lacking, food, water, humanity, beauty. He has seen people who got bread given by so-called nobles, and after eating, they were dragged away and **** as animals to eat meat.

Chen Junhua still remembers the weird carnival at that time. Many people cheered and shouted. They hadn’t eaten meat for a long time, and the smell of meat filled the air.

Even Chen Junhua was thrown with a boiled bone, but at that time he was already Chen Junhua, not Chen Tiesheng, and the **** example was just staged in front of him. Chen Junhua fled in a panic, and there were whistles and jeers behind him, but he didn’t dare to look back.

He has also seen Betas who can take off their clothes as long as they have food or water. The slums can’t get precious Omegas, so Betas are okay. A loaf of bread or a clean bottle of water can be exchanged for a night of Beta’s willingness, at least ostensibly.

Beauty is a disaster when there is not enough strength to support it. After Chen Junhua gradually opened up, his outstanding appearance became his fault. He always got his face dirty and hunched over his chest. Like a humanoid trash.

Although no one has found him to be good-looking, how can there be so many good-looking people in the slums, that is a scarce resource, and the children who are constantly being abandoned are worthless.

Someone wanted him for two nights with a bag of moldy biscuits. Before he refused, someone jumped up and snatched the biscuits and voluntarily took off his clothes. The man didn’t care who it was, it was dirty anyway, who could see it. Whoever came out, took the person to the sewage, washed it, and used it directly.

It should be very painful. Chen Junhua heard the screams of the seven- or eight-year-old child like him, but he also saw that when the child was still stained and bloodstained, he held the biscuits and smiled sincerely.

I don’t know which event affected Chen Junhua, or was the result of the combination of many things. At that time, Chen Junhua was very afraid of taking food from others. He was even willing to pick up or eat small bugs, but he was unwilling to take it from others. food.

Horrible and eerie experiences permeated his entire childhood, and it was not until the age of eleven, when he managed to join the army, that he escaped this absurd life.

Later, Chen Junhua slowly integrated into the army and was sent to study, only then did he know what a normal person is like. He studied hard, tried hard to disguise himself, and worked hard to learn how to get along with normal people.

As time goes by, his camouflage skills have become more and more sophisticated. Even if he is still out of tune with normal people, it also seems that he is a difficult person to get along with, not a monster.

After wearing the mask for a long time, he couldn’t take it off. He wore the mask for a long time, and gradually even he himself felt normal. It was not until the doctor pointed out that he had psychological problems that he realized that he was just hidden. , not disappeared.

But his choice at that time was to continue to disguise. He deceived the psychiatrist, put a stronger disguise shell on himself, and continued his disguise. Gradually he thought he had forgotten, that he was already a brand new person.

After arriving at the Zerg, he felt this way even more. He had security, a cub, and a career. Although there were dangers all around him, he felt that he was already very good.

Just when he had fully believed that he was a normal bug, a good bug, and a good male father, reality hit him hard.

When he entered the door and saw that scene, the scenes of the slums appeared one after another, and he couldn’t hold back his emotions. He knew that Jiao had no malicious intentions, at least not on the surface, and that all his actions were reasonable, but he just wanted to kill Jiao, he wanted to tear him apart and let blood spill on the floor.

He wanted to beat the two cubs and cry non-stop, who made them disobedient, who told them to open the door indiscriminately, and who made them eat indiscriminately. He clearly fed them before going out, didn’t he?

Chen Junhua used his reason to suppress his tyranny, sent the corner away, coaxed the two cubs to sleep, and went to the bathroom to calm down. Chen Junhua calmly looked for the reason why he lost control.

Probably because he was stimulated one after another during this period of time, coupled with a lot of external pressure, and just spent too much energy to memorize materials, so when he was exhausted, those terrible memories reappeared in his mind.

Chen Junhua worked **** psychological construction, and once again threw those things that he didn’t want to recall back to the back of his mind, and sealed them up layer by layer to ensure that they would not suddenly run out again.

After Chen Junhua came out of the bath, he found that the two cubs fell asleep leaning on each other at the bathroom door, and Chen Junhua hurriedly picked them up.

Chen Junhua glanced at the time. He took this bath for two hours, which was too long. The little female worm was awakened by Chen Junhua’s action, she glanced at Chen Junhua, then kissed his face and rubbed him.

The little male worm seemed to be even more sleepy. He didn’t open his eyes. Following his instinct, he kissed Chen Junhua’s face, and then rubbed against him. Chen Junhua felt a warm touch on both cheeks, and his eyes were soft.

Chen Junhua carefully put the two cubs to sleep on the bed, and then returned to the room to study the task. Anyway, he didn’t want to fall asleep tonight, he simply did something.

The next day, Chen Junhua called up the two cubs in the morning, fed them milk fruit, and changed into clothes. The two cubs looked at him with a trace of anxiety in their eyes.

Chen Junhua smiled and patted their heads, “I’m sorry, Father Xiong was too tired yesterday. When he came back and saw the door of his house was open, he couldn’t control his temper and scared you? In the future, Father Xiong will not That’s it.

Yesterday, the male father only said it once, and you may not remember it. The male father said it again. When there is no male father at home, no matter who knocks on the door, do not open it.

As long as it’s not what your father gave you to eat, no matter how delicious or fragrant it looks, don’t touch it. Do you understand? The two cubs nodded obediently, and Chen Junhua kissed them. “The cubs are awesome.” “