Chapter 168 You are wrong, I refuse to be right, you are ignorant and I am ignorant (21)

During the few days that Chao Ci was hospitalized, Tan Lie had been taking care of him.

At the beginning, he didn’t dare to say those words to affect the mood of Chaoci, and just talked to him about some light topics every day. Watching him every day and night, eating and washing are all handled by him.

But even if he wanted to make the atmosphere as relaxed as possible, his heart was getting heavier and heavier.

Every night, Tan Lie kept vigil beside Chao Ci’s ward, accompanying him. After all, in the current situation of Chao Ci, it is really inseparable from people, and it will be too late if an accident occurs. After all, it was hard to keep vigil every day, and Chao Ci also persuaded him that he could let the nurses take care of him, but Tan Lie refused.

The young man’s lifeless appearance lying in the blood will still appear in front of Tan Lie countless times. How dare he hand over the safety of Chao Ci to a stranger.

Also because he insisted on vigil, he found that although Chao Ci closed his eyes very early every night, he could not fall asleep very late.

At first, he still thought about Tan Lie’s mood and pretended to be sleeping. But Tan Lie could see that he hadn’t fallen asleep, and his breathing slowed down in the early hours of the morning. But at five or six in the morning, he woke up early again.

He only slept for almost three hours a day, but he couldn’t see any sleepy expression during the day. He just kept looking sullen and seldom spoke.

He also loves to look out the window.

The floor they were on was very high, on the fifteenth floor. Looking down from the window, this height is thrilling enough.

Chao Ci rarely got out of bed, and the few times he saw him get out of bed, he was leaning against the window and looking down.

Every time Tanlie found out, he felt so nervous and offended that he pulled him down coaxingly.

But this kind of situation is still repeated, and when Tanlie went out to answer the phone, when he came back, he saw Chao Ci lying on the window sill with half of his body outside the window.

Tan Lie’s pupils shrank, his mind went blank, he rushed up to hug his back, and carried him back to the bed.

His movement was nervous and fearful, so it was not gentle. Chao Ci was a little stunned when he fell onto the bed like this.

“What are you doing?” Tan Yue pressed his throat, his voice was full of hoarseness and depression, and he was also afraid of anger in the future.

“What on earth are you going to do! Do you know how dangerous it is!” He slammed into the court speech one after another, trying to get him to dispel the thoughts that made him chill with a vicious attitude.

But Chao Ci always looked at him calmly, and there was no emotion in the light amber eyes, calm like a pool of stagnant water.

Tan Lie looked at him like this, his voice gradually became lower and lower, and finally fell silent.

He looked at each other speechlessly with such a lifeless Chao Ci.

Yeah, how could he not know how dangerous it is?

This is just Tanlie’s own self-deception.

What the doctor said to him that day echoed in his ears again: “We can save him once, but we can’t guarantee a second, or even a third.”

Yes, he can pull him back once, twice, three times… But he can’t be by his side all the time, how can he stop a person who is determined to die.

He looked at Chao Ci’s beautiful but lifeless eyes.

This tall and strong man actually had red eyes, and tears could not help but keep from his eyes.

He was originally standing in front of Chao Ci. At this moment, he slowly squatted down, with red eyes, he held Chao Ci’s hand and looked at him in a pleading manner: “Xiao Ci, you are sick, shall I take you to get treatment?”

He said, the tears in his eyes became more turbulent, but Chao Ci still looked at him calmly and silently, his beautiful eyes were like inorganic glass beads at this time.

Tan Lie collapsed, he hugged Chao Ci and begged him: “Can you live on?”

He didn’t care about being embarrassed or not, and he didn’t care about the sight of his tears, he just repeated this kind of pleading over and over again.

“Chaoci, I beg you, will you live on?”

Chao Ci was held in his arms by a tall and handsome man. His strong and slender arms tightly clasped Chao Ci’s waist, but people couldn’t feel his strength at all.

There are only humble pleas, over and over again.

His body was shaking, and Chao Ci could feel it.

The figure in his arms is like a lifeless puppet, cold and dead from beginning to end, without any response.

Tan Lie’s heart became colder and colder.

Just when he was about to despair, a very light syllable came from his ear: “Okay.”

In an instant, Tan Lie’s almost withered and dry heart was instantly redeemed by Gan Li.

He almost suspected that he heard it wrong, straightened his back suddenly, and asked Chao Ci face to face again: “Really?”

Chao Ci looked at him without speaking.

“You really agreed? You agreed, right?” he asked over and over again like a fool.

Chao Ci suddenly smiled, and he said, “If you ask one more question, I will regret it.”

This sentence proved to Tanlie that what he had just heard was not an illusion.

And such a smiling face of the morning speech also showed a little anger, which made Tan Lie ecstatic.

He hugged Chao Ci again, this time instead of begging in his ear, he kept kissing his forehead and between his hair, murmuring, “Thank you, Chao Ci, thank you…”

Chao Ci closed his eyes and let him drop soft and loving kisses one by one.

In my heart, I said helplessly to the system: [I really can’t commit suicide, but if I commit suicide now, I will be dragged back 100%. 】

Therefore, he can only give “self” a reason to let “self” try to live.

[Will it violate the character setting a bit? 】The system couldn’t help but ask.

After all, the people in this world can be said to be terminally ill. Zhao Yi is his only medicine. Without this medicine, he will only wither and die.

[Now there is no mechanism for forcing me to abide by the character design,] Chao Ci is too lazy to care about this little idiot A11111, [One thought of life, one thought of death. People are so complicated, except for “Chao Ci” himself, who can tell clearly? As long as you can justify yourself, it’s not what I said about the character design? 】

The human mind is too complex. Although the system has intelligence, it is still composed of established procedures. It is difficult to understand such complex ideas.

…

Chaoci promised Tan Lie to go to the hospital for treatment.

And the process of healing is far more painful than ordinary people imagine.

Chao Ci’s condition is very serious, not only psychological treatment, drug treatment, but also some other means.

In Chao Ci, the treatment is a process of digging out the wound that was buried and rotted to the bone, and then slowly healed.

Before he was treated, he was still a very normal person on the surface. But a month after the start of treatment, he slowly began to experience various symptoms, such as loss of appetite, dizziness, chest tightness, vomiting… and even self-harm.

Everyone knows that self-harm is not good, including “Chao Ci” himself, but he can’t control it.

As if only such pain could bring him pleasure and pleasure.

Doctors put medical bandages on him and tied him to the bed to stop him from further self-harm.

Most of the time, Chao Ci had no opinion. He sat there quietly, letting Tanlie feed him, talk to him, and even tell stories like a child.

But when he attacked, it was very violent. He was desperately pulling on the medical bandages, his wrists were still red and swollen, and he tried his best to break free of these restraints.

Whenever this time, Tan Lie can only have red eyes, hold him tightly, and prevent him from hurting himself.

At that time, Chao Ci, who was affected by the extremely suppressed emotions, no longer had reason, biting and kicking at Tan Lie.

The doctor advised Tanlie to let go of the court speech first. Chao Ci was tied, even without Tan Lie, he would be fine.

But Tan Lie insisted to accompany the court speech. No matter how Chao Ci kicked and bit him, he didn’t show any pain, just stroked Chao Ci’s back and kept comforting him.

This situation will continue for about an hour, and the court speech will gradually calm down.

After that, he looked at Tan Lie, whose shoulders were full of bite marks and even seeped blood. He just looked at him and didn’t speak.

Tan Lie also pretended that nothing happened, wiped the cold sweat from his forehead for him, and then asked him warmly what he wanted to eat later.

Chao Ci has no appetite here, and for a while it was so serious that he could only rely on infusion.

Tan Lie tried his best to invite countless famous chefs and nutritionists, and finally found that only the dishes he cooked by himself, Chao Ci was willing to eat a few bites.

Because he is a broken shell.

Chao Ci was treated in China for two months.

But although the situation has improved, it is still very serious. Tan Lie wanted to bring Chao Ci to Country D for treatment, but he was afraid that Chao Ci would be more unaccustomed to going to a foreign country.

But after two months of treatment, Tan Lie felt bitterly distressed after seeing a lot of weight loss but not seeing a good morning speech.

In the end, he couldn’t help but mention it to Chao Ci, hoping that he could go to Country D with him and receive better treatment there.

In fact, he knew that for Chao Ci, the antidote was not hospitals, doctors, or drugs, but Zhao Yi.

But Zhao Yi didn’t love him, and the antidote fell into an infinite loop. What Chao Ci wants is Zhao Yi’s love, not anything else. Tanlie can do many things for Chaoci, but not this one. He can’t control other people’s emotions.

In fact, even if you get Zhao Yi’s love, it is only a temporary solution.

Chao Ci attached his life to Zhao Yi, which was not an antidote for him, but drinking poison to quench his thirst. Even if Zhao Yi was with him, Chao Ci’s situation was still on thin ice. Any mistakes will push his psychological situation to the other extreme.

It’s like taking drugs. Everyone knows it’s wrong, everyone knows that life will be doomed, but it is easier to have a poison at your fingertips than a painful cure.

So Tanlie can’t do it and can’t do it.