Chapter 75

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Xinghe spent a night to pack up his mood.

When he came to school the next day, Jiang Chuanxu arrived in the classroom early, which was unusual.

“Arrived so early?”

Xinghe was a little puzzled, and asked casually, and was about to put his schoolbag in the table hole.

“What’s the matter, I have to study hard, is it weird?”

Jiang Chuanxu nodded and showed a pleasing smile.

“did you have breakfast?”

“Touch the hole in the table.”

Xinghe removed his schoolbag and looked inside.

“Baozi soy milk, surprise!”

Jiang Chuanxu clapped his hands exaggeratedly.

Xinghe sighed, but still took the plastic bag out of the classroom and finished the breakfast that Jiang Chuanxu brought in the corridor.

“Don’t bring it to me in the future, I have eaten it.”

Back in the classroom, Xinghe touched his chubby belly.

“Hey hey, okay.”

Jiang Chuanxu looked at Xinghe’s face again and again, and felt that it was almost the same as before.

“Which school did you go to?”

He asked again inadvertently.

Xinghe paused, and answered while writing the question, “The local A university.”

“A is great, A is great.”

Jiang Chuanxu followed happily.

Galaxy can go to better schools, but A major is the most cost-effective option.

It is also Jiang Chuanxu’s most assured volunteer.

“We can still go to college together, and maybe we can be arranged in the same dormitory.”

“How about it?”

Jiang Chuanxu leaned into Xinghe’s ear and said softly.

“OK.”

Xinghe agreed.

He looked into Jiang Chuanxu’s eyes, his words were clear and firm.

“Brothers.”

…

Yan Mingzhao heard the girl ask him, “Do you have someone you like?”

At this moment, he thought of the way Xinghe tilted his head and fell asleep leaning against a tree in gym class.

His eyelashes were long and curled, and his lips were slightly pursed, somewhat dry and peeling.

From trance to clarity, it probably only takes a word of encouragement.

Yan Mingzhao has someone he likes.

He nodded to the girl.

“So you can’t consider me?”

The girl was a little sad, but she still tried to smile.

“I’m very sorry.”

Yan Mingzhao responded gently.

My liking is not a whim or a gust of wind.

Rather, it is like a quagmire with deep deposits, and it is like a volcano, forbidding it.

When Yan Mingzhao saw Xinghe again, his heart was very calm.

But some feelings have changed.

“Hi, how are you today?”

Yan Mingzhao stood behind Xinghe and followed his line of sight to see Jiang Chuanxu in the corner.

Xinghe’s eyes were a little sad.

Yan Mingzhao sat beside Xinghe’s bed, watching him in a daze.

“Are you not happy?”

“Don’t be unhappy, do you like the gift I gave you? It took me a long time to finish it.”

Yan Mingzhao found that he could occasionally put some gifts in Xinghe’s table hole.

He tilted his head and smiled.

“I’ve prepared a new gift. It’s a very beautiful chain with your name engraved on it.”

“I’ll give it to you when it’s ready, okay?”

Xinghe lowered his head and completed his homework seriously.

Yan Mingzhao was accustomed to such days of no reply.

He just sat quietly by the side, watching the galaxy softly.

Xinghe finished his homework and reviewed his homework, ready to wash and sleep.

“Do you want to have a rest?”

Yan Mingzhao sighed with a little bit of contentment.

Xinghe climbed onto the bed, covered the quilt, and closed his eyes.

Yan Mingzhao sat on the side of the bed and wanted to reach out to touch the galaxy, but he still passed through.

“Good night.”

After whispering good night, Yan Mingzhao leaned down, touched Xinghe’s forehead, and gently dropped a kiss.

“I don’t want to be friends with you anymore.”

Yan Mingzhao’s nose is a little sour.

“I like you.”

…

On the eve of the college entrance examination, the atmosphere was already very tense.

Jiang Chuanxu also stopped playing and was ready to make the final assault with Xinghe.

Tailielie pressed down on Xinghe, and Jiang Chuanxu was chattering about planning his college career. Of course, there was Xinghe in it.

“Hey, why haven’t you taken the college entrance examination? I can’t wait.”

Jiang Chuanxu swayed around with his arms around Xinghe.

“Stop shaking me!”

Xinghe’s head was dizzy.

“If you can’t pass the exam, you’ll be miserable. Why don’t you study hard?”

Pushing Jiang Chuanxu away, Xinghe rubbed his temples.

“how is this possible?”

After muttering a few words in a low voice, Jiang Chuanxu picked up the pen resentfully.

“This week is going to be a holiday before the exam. I’ll find you when the time comes.”

He was not at ease, so he leaned into Xinghe’s ear and asked another sentence.

Xinghe reluctantly responded, and urged him to study again.

By the week before the exam, the school was emptied.

The students also returned home one after another.

Jiang Chuanxu always stays in Xinghe’s room and does not go away, and he has a good name: study counseling.

“So can you not press on me?”

Xinghe moved his left arm and turned to look at Jiang Chuanxu who was smiling.

“Do you know the expression on your face right now?”

Unable to bear it any longer, Xinghe desperately pushed Jiang Chuanxu away.

Jiang Chuanxu still hugged Xinghe tightly and didn’t let go, and even got a little closer.

Xinghe was a little annoyed, and tried to stop it.

“Boom.”

Jiang Chuanxu was suddenly pulled by Xinghe and kissed his chin.

It hurt a bit from being knocked on by his teeth, but Xinghe froze on the seat and touched his chin dully.

Jiang Chuanxu also widened his eyes in shock, keeping this posture and not daring to move.

The two were silent for a while.

“stand up.”

In the end, Xinghe took the initiative to push Jiang Chuanxu, but he couldn’t see any emotion.

Jiang Chuanxu held Xinghe’s arm tightly, pursed his lips again, and swallowed nervously.

He leaned in slowly and kissed the place where he bumped lightly.

Xinghe shook and lowered his eyelashes.

“Get up.” His words lost a bit of confidence.

Jiang Chuanxu wanted to follow Xinghe’s sight, and then gently pecked upward from the bump, and moved up to his lips little by little.

“do not do that.”

Xinghe tightened his body and reached out to block Jiang Chuanxu’s mouth.

Jiang Chuanxu was a little confused and stunned. He let go of Xinghe’s arm and pursed his lips a few times before realizing what he had done.

“Are you tired? Let’s go home and rest.”

Xinghe lowered his head, did not look at Jiang Chuanxu’s face, and tried his best to remain calm.

Stumbling to his feet, he picked up his schoolbag, and Jiang Chuanxu hurriedly left Xinghe’s room.

Xinghe raised his head and looked out the window, just in time to capture the back of him leaving.

Xinghe felt that there were still small sparks hidden in the ashes of the flames that had been extinguished in his heart. Even if he refused to admit it, or covered it up with firewood, he could not deny this throbbing.

Just a gust of wind and it will reignite.

…

Yan Mingzhao carefully looked at the chain in his hand.

“do you like it?”

Muttering to himself, Yan Mingzhao smiled shyly.

“If only you could know who I am.”

“Even if it’s a fantasy, it will come to an end.”

“I don’t know what will happen then?”

Yan Mingzhao saw Xinghe again.

He looked in good spirits, with relief and joy in his eyes.

Is the exam over? Should be doing well, right?

Yan Mingzhao followed closely behind Xing He and quietly stuffed the chain into his bag.

Xinghe returned home, relaxed his body, and began to pack up his schoolbag and the books in the room. He took out the chain from the schoolbag.

He turned the chain carefully and looked at it, then found his name.

Xinghe smiled.

Yan Mingzhao stood happily behind him, “Do you like it?”

“There are stars, but also your name.”

“Hurry up and try it.”

He stared at Xinghe intently, with anticipation in his eyes.

Xinghe carefully received the chain into the box.

“bang bang”

There was a knock on Xinghe’s door.

Jiang Chuanxu walked in.

Yan Mingzhao looked at Jiang Chuanxu on the left and Xinghe on the right. He was sensitively aware that the current situation was not quite right, and it seemed that something special had happened.

Jiang Chuanxu moved slowly in front of Xinghe, his eyes dodging.

Xinghe’s eyes were filled with anticipation and joy that could not be hidden.

Jiang Chuanxu seemed a little embarrassed, and his lips twitched a few times, but he still couldn’t say anything.

He just tentatively and slowly stretched out his arms, gently hugged Xinghe, and put his head on his shoulder.

Yan Mingzhao seemed to understand something.

He could only watch Xinghe lift Jiang Chuanxu’s chin and put the kiss on his lips.

“thanks.”

Xinghe laughed softly and thanked Jiang Chuanxu in his ear.

Thank you for the gift, I love it.

Yan Mingzhao suddenly remembered the smile on Xinghe’s lips when Jiang Chuanxu carefully touched the sleeping Xinghe in middle school.

Thinking of the sun shining brightly, the peach blossoms falling, Jiang Chuanxu crossed his shoulders and chatted in Xinghe’s ear.

Xing He rested on Jiang Chuanxu’s lap and basked in the sun, and Jiang Chuanxu ran recklessly on the street with Xinghe on his back.

The difference between Yan Ming Zhao and Xinghe is not only the distance that cannot be touched.

It’s those years and real emotions.

Yan Mingzhao was willing to become a shadow, and it really disappeared like a shadow.

the next seven years.

From university and graduate students, Yan Mingzhao couldn’t forgive himself.

…

Xinghe discovered that they had been dating for a year when Jiang Chuanxu didn’t send him any more small gifts.

“You don’t give me gifts like you used to.”

Xinghe complained softly.

“what do you want?”

“I’ve given myself to you, and it’s not enough, so greedy?”

Jiang Chuanxu always hugged Xinghe and laughed, and dropped a light kiss on his cheek.

This is a very happy time.

They met in junior high school, fell in love after the college entrance examination, four years in college and three years in graduate school.

Fifteen years of student life.

The love that Xinghe once thought was extravagant and precious, Jiang Chuanxu gave him without reservation.

So when the blow comes.

Xinghe felt that he could not accept it.

“I really can’t take it anymore.”

Jiang Chuanxu collapsed on Xinghe’s lap.

His parents brought too much pressure to Jiang Chuanxu. Although he repeatedly avoided, explained and fought, he could not get the approval of his family.

Jiang Chuanxu has guarded Xinghe for fifteen years. He once thought that they would spend this life like this.

But in his life, in addition to Xinghe, there are parents, relatives, and friends.

It’s not that he didn’t try.

I just can’t stand it anymore.

Xinghe calmly chose to break up. In fact, over the years, very few people knew about their relationship, and the two of them were not very public.

No tears, no quarrels and curses.

Xinghe deleted Jiang Chuanxu’s contact information, found a new job, and moved house.

He is alone again.

…

Yan Mingzhao has always resisted this illusion.

He hopes that Xinghe can live happily, but the happiness brought by others is too cruel.

He closed his eyes and covered his ears, trying to escape the torture.

But every day and night of the seven years, he tossed and turned, and he could never forget it.

He tried to love another person in the past, but when Yan Mingzhao looked into other people’s eyes, he always thought of falling peach blossoms and the curved eyebrows of Xinghe.

Yan Mingzhao eventually became a psychiatrist.

But he was immersed in his own fantasy, unable to extricate himself.

Until this day, he saw Xinghe dragging his luggage and quietly left his home with Jiang Chuanxu.

This might be a bit despicable.

Yan Mingzhao couldn’t deny the joy in his heart.

He reappeared in Xinghe’s life, as if Jiang Chuanxu had never appeared, only Xinghe and him.

…

Two years later.

Xinghe received a job change, and soon he will be transferred from City A to City S.

At the same time, he also received a text message from Jiang Chuanxu.

Jiang Chuanxu is getting married.

Xinghe refused the other party’s request to meet again.

But he agreed to get another call.

Yan Mingzhao heard this conversation.

“I wish you a happy life with your children and grandchildren.”

Xinghe really blesses Jiang Chuanxu.

As for how much regret and pain the other party has, it is no longer related to Xinghe.

“I’m going to be transferred to City S, and I probably won’t see you again in the future.”

This is the last dialogue between Xinghe and Jiang Chuanxu.

Yan Mingzhao stood there blankly, with cold hands and feet.

City S?

Yan Mingzhao always thought that this was an illusion and that all characters and things were fabricated illusions.

Just like his first meeting with Xinghe.

“S City has no peach blossoms.”

He was so certain that he believed that he was sick.

But he heard the name “S City” from Xinghe’s mouth.

It was the hometown where he grew up.

Yan Mingzhao shook his hands for the first time and entered the name of Xinghe’s junior high school.

In all the news introductions, Yan Mingzhao saw the familiar scenery of peach blossoms.

Fifteen years plus two years.

Yan Mingzhao knew it at the cost of seventeen years.

Fu Xinghe in City A is not an illusion, he really exists.

…

Unfortunately, when Yan Mingzhao found Xinghe, it was already too late.

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

Xinghe felt very sorry.

“If there is another chance, I will like you too.”

Yan Mingzhao wanted a second chance.

I also want to stand in front of Xinghe with integrity and say to him.

“My name is Yan Mingzhao, and I have liked you for many, many years.”

“Even if you don’t know my existence, I know all your stories.”

“Do you like my gift?”

“If you like it, I can give it to you for a lifetime.”

Yan Mingzhao waited too long and finally got this opportunity.

“At least the moment you left, I was by your side.”

“Every world after that, when I meet you, I will never run away.”

“I want to grow old with you.”

“I want to tell you that I love you so much.”

[End of the original world]

The author has something to say: I said that these pictures are a bit cruel, but you are actually commenting hahaha, sad, very sad~ (poor)

I’ll make up for you in two chapters later, a small follow-up smile and sweet smile~ Then the book will end~