Chapter 66 gentle

As expected, Ji Yu has now left Mrs. Wei Guoxin’s mansion to go to the State of Song, and we will go to the State of Song by water. When he told me this, my brain started to run unconsciously. That day, I heard the conversation between the Son of Heaven and Ji Yu, and Song Guo was preparing to attack Zhou’s territory. When the emperor took advantage of the demise of the Yan State, the princes’ arrogance behaviors were restrained, but now Zhou’s strength is declining and the Song State is not paying attention to the name of the emperor because of the country’s wealth and strength.

I couldn’t help but wonder if Ji Yu came to me because there was something else I needed to do?

At sunset that day, the river was sparkling, and Ji Yu walked ahead carrying my package—he said that I hadn’t fully recovered yet, so he carried the package for me even though he was also sick. Uncomfortable, I walked behind him empty-handed, noticing that he seemed to be waiting for me on purpose as he walked in a slow pace.

It was a very large passenger ship, moored at the illuminated golden ferry, and the bustling stream of people boarded and disembarked along the steps, and I stopped when I walked in front of the steps. Ji Yu seemed to have eyes in the back of his head. As soon as I stopped, he looked back at me and asked me what was wrong.

“You came to me because there is something Song State needs me to do?” I asked.

Ji Yu narrowed her eyes slightly and said, “No.”

“why?”

He looked at me for a while, and said as if joking: “Is it because I can’t answer this question well, so you just jumped off here and won’t go back with me?”

I was dumbfounded, and I also felt that this question was boring, so I lowered my eyes and planned to continue walking, but I heard his voice.

“I miss you.”

His speech had never been so difficult and slurred, as if it was squeezed out from the depths of his throat.

Ji Yu, what is he talking about? He said he… miss me?

I suspected something was wrong with my ears, and looked up at him in a daze. At that moment, he slid his eyes away and coughed several times before slowly turning his head back to respond to my gaze. Then he smiled lightly and said in a low voice, “It’s not that difficult to say it.”

After speaking, he took two steps towards me, took my hand and walked up the pedal. I followed him forward in a daze, through the crowds and on the deck, and it took me a long time to ask, “You…what did you say?”

Ji Yu found our room on the boat, opened the door and said with a normal expression, “It’s fine if you don’t hear clearly.”

His unnatural reaction made it seem that what he said was serious. I was so confused that I couldn’t believe it.

The scale of this ship is not small, and its specification is a little lower than the previous boat from Song State to Fan State. Therefore, there are no celebrities and dignitaries, and most of them are business travelers or ordinary scholar-bureaucrats. This room is only a medium-sized room on a ship, and it is very clean. Open the door and turn a corner in the corridor to see the deck.

I looked around this simple room, and naturally there was only one bed in the room, so I said, “A bed?”

“I don’t plan to do anything to you. If you mind, I’ll sleep on the floor.” Ji Yu threw the package on the bed and said lightly.

How could a man like him sleep on the floor, and he was still running a fever. And I am seasick myself, and sleeping on the ground is afraid that it will make me die.

It’s not that they haven’t slept together.

“Forget it, I don’t mind.”

I sighed, sat on the edge of the bed and began to pack my things, wondering if I would be boiled by Ji Yu in warm water? What the **** is he thinking?

Ji Yu laughed softly, as if a little proud.

The good times didn’t last long, and he didn’t feel complacent for long. His body temperature soared all the way at night, his forehead was terribly hot, and he lay listlessly on the bed with no energy left.

Fortunately, he brought some pills with him this time. I poured warm water to feed him, applied cold water to his forehead and wiped his arms, and covered him with a quilt to make him sweat. After taking care of Shen Baiwu during the period of training, I have become familiar with handling these matters.

Ji Yu covered the quilt and looked at me busy, very rarely showing a well-behaved state. He was quiet for a while and suddenly took my hand. I looked at him for no reason, and then I heard him say in a low voice: “Don’t be busy, I’m fine. If you’re really worried, just sing a song for me.”

This situation is very familiar, it seems that he has done it in Mu Yun. And this time it wasn’t any other song, he asked to listen to “Taoyao” by name.

I froze for a moment and then refused, I said: “I forgot how to sing.”

Ji Yu narrowed his eyes slightly, I expected that he would not believe me, but he didn’t ask any more, just smiled and said: “Okay, then I’ll teach you again.”

He sang this wedding song slowly and in a low voice, his hoarse voice due to fever made the song seem thick. His enunciation is very special, and every sound is sung with a slight echo, scratching the heart and lungs leisurely.

Just like fourteen years ago, he sang this song very well.

I was a little dazed, and when he sang from the beginning, I was half a beat late to react, and sat on his bedside to stop him: “Your voice is hoarse, don’t sing any more.”

So he listened to the singing and fixedly looked into my eyes. I looked at him for a long while and was still defeated. I resigned to my fate and said, “Okay, I’ll sing.”

Sure enough, after he knew that I liked him very much, he would be unscrupulous.

He clearly expected that I would feel sorry for him.

I cleared my throat and sang with some hesitation.

“Peach blossoms, scorching its flowers, the son returns home, suitable for his family…”

The singing sound echoed softly in the room, Ji Yu looked at me quietly and intently, this time he didn’t laugh at me again. This is probably the only song I don’t get out of tune. Maybe it’s because my memory of him is so deep that I can’t forget it for a second, so I can write down the melody of this song.

Ji Yu seemed to be very tired, and he slowly fell into a deep sleep as he listened, with a relaxed and joyful expression, and he still held my hand tightly.

I don’t know if it’s because of his illness, but he looks innocent and childish today.

I tucked him in and gently took my hand out of his hand, and pushed open the door to the deck. I’m still a little seasick, and the nausea and stuffiness in my chest won’t go away, and I need to get some air.

The night wind blows and the night is dark, and there are not many people on the deck. The moonlight is so bright that the river surface shines like daytime. I leaned on the railing, watching the towering mountains on the river bank slowly swaying and moving in the night, and the turbulent emotions in my heart finally settled down.

From the other cabins on the ship came the sound of laughter and games, distant but warm. I thought aimlessly, why can they easily have such an ordinary and happy life? Even in those days when I was free, I was just a bystander.

If I allow myself to wishful thinking for a while, can I live an ordinary and happy life with Ji Yu?

Thinking about it this way, I feel weird, how could Ji Yu live an ordinary life, he was born outstanding.

I don’t know how long I was in a daze on the railing, and suddenly a figure lay on the railing next to me, accompanied by the scent of cypress, the person whispered: “You actually left the patient alone, what are you doing here?”

Ji Yu was standing beside me in his coat, I was stunned and immediately touched his forehead, it was not so hot anymore.

“I’m seasick to get some air, you go back quickly and don’t catch a cold.” I explained.

Ji Yu didn’t listen to my advice, he still lay on the railing, propped his chin and looked at the mountains in the distance, and said with a smile: “I thought you were going to jump into the river when I saw you from a distance, I was so scared that I broke out in sweat.” .It’s a good way to reduce fever.”

The tone was understated, as if joking.

I didn’t know how true or false his words were, so I had no choice but to keep silent. But he turned his head and looked at me seriously, with moonlight in his eyes, as if he knew what I was thinking and said: “When I talk like this, do you often not be able to tell whether I am serious or joking? ”

I hesitated for a moment, then nodded, as he did most of the time when he talked to me.

Ji Yu laughed softly, straightened her waist and said in a declarative tone: “I just woke up and saw that you were not there and thought you had escaped again. When I came out to look for you, I saw you lying on the railing. And escape, like jumping off. It’s stupid to think about it when you calm down.”

“These words are not a joke. I have been scared by you during this time. When you were unconscious, I always dreamed that you jumped off the cliff in front of me. You didn’t say a word and I never caught it. You. Later, you escaped, and my nightmare turned into your poisonous death. You successfully replaced King Pei Muyan, my sister, and the others, and became frequent visitors in my dreams.” Ji Yu lowered her eyes and smiled softly, It seems a little self-deprecating.

I have never seen him show weakness to anyone before, and I couldn’t help but look at him in surprise and confusion, wondering if this Ji Yu was the one I knew.

My reaction seemed to be within Ji Yu’s expectations. His eyes flickered for a while, and he sighed, “It doesn’t matter if you don’t believe me, it’s still a long time… Cough cough, cough cough…”

He started coughing again, I quickly tightened his coat, and dragged him back to the room, this time he obediently followed me.

After the ups and downs of the day, I finally lay down on the bed and prepared to rest. I was lying on the inside against the wall while Ji Yu was on the outside, and we each covered two quilts. He looked at me with amber eyes for a while, and asked me very politely if he could hug me to sleep.

This amazing politeness made me feel confused for a moment. Before I could say anything, he stretched out his arms and fished me over, hugged my shoulders, and whispered good night to me.

I fell into his arms and clearly heard his powerful heartbeat. This kind of intimacy and cherishment makes me a little at a loss. I know that he is extremely gentle when he is willing to act gentle, but today is really unusual. He is not like the usual him.

I asked sullenly in his arms: “Why are you doing this?”

Ji Yu was silent for a while before answering: “I have talked a lot with Xin Ran in the past few months, and I think I have to learn how to love others.”

“You don’t need a soft spot.”

“It’s needed now.”

I was suddenly speechless, and I felt that if I said anything else, I might cry.

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For Jiujiu, belief is more difficult than liking itself.